Diary

Thursday March 1 2018 - Arrived approximatly 12 noon. Staff from 451 Quincy Ave came back around 3 PM with the second load of my stuff and then left. My room mate was not here. Cephas left around 4 PM. I was alone the rest of the day.

Friday March 2 2018 - My room mate did not come home Thursday. We had a really bad storm all day. My room mate came back took a shower then left. She did not return until Sunday. (I think) We lost power because of the storm about 6 PM. We also had no heat. It's natural gas but the thermostat wasn't working. I was alone all day except when my room mate took a shower.

Saturday March 3 2018 - Some one named Brian came by around noon and said we couldn't stay here because there was still no heat or power. He said he was from Vinfen. He took all 3 of us. I and someone from the other side went to 693 North Main St Randolph and the other person from the other side went to ??? Grove St Randolph. I stayed at 693 until Sunday around 9 AM. I did not sleep all night. I managed to call my mother and explain the situation. Around noon I went to Crawford Square Randolph and got something to eat. Dunkin Donuts and D'Angelos Sub. I also went to Shaws Supermarket and got some chickenshitted Polar Root Beer  and Country Kitchen Donuts I had to throw away. To Shaws credit the orange juice and Starbucks iced coffee was edible. ???? (can you see my middle finger?)

Sunday March 4 2018 - I got back about 9 AM. My room mate was home most of the day. I spent the rest of the day unpacking.

Monday March 5 2018 - I have not seen Cephas since Thursday. He has not called and I can't call him. I haven't paid the rent or signed an agreement and I don't have a key to the front door.I can get in by going to 26. I waited until about noon for Cephas to show up and then left to get something to eat and try to solve the phone problem. I went to the Turner Free Public Library in Crawford Square to vent on the internet. Then I went to the Citizens Bank down the street and then got the 238 bus to South Shore Plaza. I ate at the Food Court then went to Target and Sears. (FU for breaking my screw driver) Target did not have a phone I could use. I bought a couple things and got a really nasty chickneshitted cup of Starbuck coffee. They didn't charge me for it because they said it had been sitting for over an hour. It was really nasty so I threw it away. I caught the 238 back to Randolph and was home about 5 PM. My room mate is in her room.

Tuesday March 6 2018 - 6 PM - I have not seen or heard from my Vinfen worker since Thursday March 1 2018. I have not signed a rent agreement, I have not paid the rent and I do not have a key to the apartment. There is no land line phone, TV or internet. I no longer have a cell phone so I can't call anyone and no one can get in touch with me. My room mate was here last night but left this morning and is not back as of 6 PM. Today I went to Crawford Square around noon to go to the library. I ate at Papa Ginos next to Shaws Supermarket. I went to Dunkin Donuts down the street and then the new supermarket behind D'Angelos. I was back around 4 PM. They let me in next door. We are expecting another Nor'Easter tomorrow. My mother knows I am here. She lives at 180 Grove St Braintree Apt 1R.

Wednesday March 7 2018 – My Vinfen worker came by about 1 PM and gave me a key. I gave him my Social Security Award letter so he could figure the rent. My room mate has not been home since yesterday. I spent most of the day doing laundry and unpacking. I went out about 2 PM to find something to eat. I went to the Ocean State Job Lot on Rt 139 and the Mobil across the street. I am still trying to fix the phone problem. We are expecting another storm.

Thursday March 8 2018 -  It snowed all day. My room mate has not been home.

Friday March 9 2018 – A Vinfen worker took me shopping. My room mate has not been home all day.

Saturday March 10 2018 – My mother stopped by unannounced to see if I was alright. She took me to BJ's to try to fix the phone problem. We didn't like anything they had so we went to WalMart in Avon. I bought a Tracfone SIM activation kit. When I got home I discovered I needed the internet to get it going. I gave up for the day. My room mate has not been home all day.

Sunday March 11 2018 – I decided to go to Quincy Center to bring some things to Goodwill and go to the Crane Library to get the phone working. It was an all day mission. I took the 240 bus to Crawford Square then the 238 to Quincy Adams T stop then the red line to Quincy Center. I got the phone working, got something to eat and came back. My room mate has not been home all day.

Monday March 12 2018 – We are expecting another Nor'Easter tomorrow. My Vinfen worker stopped by and returned my social security award letter but we did not sign a rent agreement. I still have not paid the rent for March. I don't know the amount. He said I would get a key to the mailbox on Friday. My room mate was not home all day.

Tuesday March 13 2018 – It snowed all day. We did not lose the power or heat. I stayed home. I slept most of the day and listened to the radio. It stopped about 9 PM. We got over a foot. My room mate was not home all day.

Wednesday March 14 2018 –  7 PM - This morning I went to the Turner Free Library in Crawford Square to update the diary and other things. I couldn't find the right file on my computer before I left. Sunday or Monday I had updated it to include the last couple days of last week. I beleive someone was into my computer while I was out. AGAIN. I am being violated not just every day but minute by minute. Must be nice to have bread, water and breathing rights on the pig vomit planet. I wouldn't know I've never had them. AND I DON'T WANT THEM. I went out about 11 AM. When I came back my room mate was here but left about 6 PM. I am trying to change my address with the post office. I tried to do it at the library but the website wouldn't allow it. They said my last address, 451 Quincy Ave Braintree Mass 02184, is a business not a residence so I can't change it. ???? I did recieve my mail there. ??? I assume it is still going there. I also went to Dunkin Donuts and Shaws. I got back about 4 PM. This morning someone from Forced Air Inc. came to look at the furnace. I think they changed the filter. Now there is a beeping sound like a battery in a smoke detector. As I was leaving someone from Vinfen was sitting in a truck in the driveway. I didn't say anything and they didn't say anything.

Thursday March 15 2018 – 7:30 PM – My room mate was home last night. Came and went during the day. Left sometime after 1 PM and isn't back. Late last night the carbon monoxide detector went off for about 1 minute. I ignored it because it stopped. This is after someone came yesterday to work on the furnace. ???? I left about 1 PM and walked to Target in Stoughton. Got back about 5 PM. Ate a frozen pizza. Have not solved the post office problem. I figure maybe I can just ignore it. If I change the address associated with every thing the mail will arrive anyway. I just can't get anything forwarded. I will have to make a few trips to Braintree to pick it up. Radio says we're expecting another storm next week.

Friday March 16 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate was here last night. Came and went all day. Not here now. Haven't seen my Vinfen worker. Haven't signed a rent agreement and haven't paid the rent for March. Someone was supposed to stop by and drop off a key to the mailbox but didn't. I left about 9 AM for Dunkin Donuts and the library. Left the library about 12 PM and went to Post Office to fill out a change of address. Then went to Ocean State Job Lot and then home. Was back around 2 PM. Took a nap then listened to the radio. I think someone was in my room again.

Saturday March 17 2018 – Room mate stayed the night. Left about 2 PM and came home about 2 AM Sunday. Haven't seen my Vinfen worker. Stayed home all day. Did laundry slept. Expecting my mother tomorrow.

Sunday March 18 2018 - Room mate stayed last night. Left about 11 AM and didn't come home. I went to Kentucky Fried Chicken in Stoighton with my mother about 12 PM. Then we went to Target in Stoughton where I got a whole lot of chickenshitted food. Ice cream Coke muffins the whole nine yards. Good thing my mother paid for it. I was back home about 2:30 PM and went to bed about 6 PM. I am typing this on a freshly chickenshitted computer so I think someone was in in my room again. Can you say coward. Well of course you can. Technically you have to be a life form to be a coward but we'll let that go.

Monday March 19 2018 – (next day) ND – Room mate was not home all day. I left about 11 PM to go to Dunkin Donuts and the library. I stayed about 3 hours at the library on the internet. Ate at Papa Ginos went to Shaws and came home.

Tuesday March 20 2018 – 11 AM – Room mate not home. I have been here about 3 weeks. I have been completely alone most of that time except for the people next door. This is a two story duplex. Vinfen has both sides of the duplex. There is a cellar, a first floor and a second floor. You can pass from one side to the other on both the first and second floors but not the cellar. There are doors but no locks. This morning I got up to do laundry. When I went to the cellar there was an appliance technician fixing the washer. Someone next door must have let him in. My room is very small so I had to put some of my stuff in the cellar. It's no secret I mess around with electronics. All my stuff is upstairs. In the cellar there is a table in one corner stacked with cabinets full of electronics parts. None of this is mine and I don't know where it came from. I noticed it about a week ago. While poking around it I found an empty wine bottle. I threw it out. I'm not sure, but if you get caught drinking or drugging here you can get thrown out. Maybe they give you one warning then throw you out. Today I was poking around again and I found 2 empty bottles of beer and a small glass container with some 'green tobacco'. (see pictures) I smoked pot in high school and I know what it looks like. This is not mine. We are expecting another Nor'Easter tomorrow. I may not get back to the library until the end of the week. When I first moved here there was no lock on my door. I put my own lock on. I think it has already been comprimised despite the fact I didn't give a key to anyone.  -7 PM - My Vinfen worker came by. I complained about the appliance technician and the fact the smoke and carbon monoxide detectors have been beeping since the furnace repairman left last week. My room mate is still not home. I still do not have a rent agreement. I have not paid the rent.

Wednesday March 21 2018 – 6 PM – Room mate came home very late last night. Was with at least one other person. Left today about 1 or 2 PM. I stayed home all day. Worked at my computer, slept. Expecting snow but it hasn't started. Very cold for March. Not expecting to go anywhere tomorrow, but I'm running out of food. Discovered I can connect my PC to the internet through the cell phone using USB tethering but it's so slow it's not worth anything but the email. My cell phone is at least 6 years old. Need to get a new one with a big display and all kinds of whistles and bells.

Thursday Macrh 22 2018 – ND – Room mate not home. Didn't come home last night. Began to snow about 6 AM. I went to Dunkin Donuts and library about 12 PM. Posted pictures of marijuana and beer. Tried to change address associated with section 8 housing list but couldn't. (total surveillance ???) USB tethering has stopped working at home. (total surveillance ???) Went to Shaws then D'Angelos. D'Angelos screwed up the order. (accidentally on purpose ???) Got home about 4 PM. Still haven't signed a rent agreement or paid rent. I am not getting my mail because I still don't have a key to the box. I'm not sure if they're forwarding it or not. I couldn't fill out the online form because they say the old address is a business not a residence. I filled one out at the Randolph P.O. I'm going to Braintree in person tomorrow to try to pick it up. I'm sure they're way ahead of me but I'll do it anyway. Went to bed about 8 PM. Room mate not home.

Friday March 23 2018 – 9 PM – Room mate not home all day. Not home now. Left this morning to try to pick up my mail, if any, at 451 Quincy Ave Braintree (Patten Ave). Got there about 12 PM. There was no staff there. All I could manage was 2 pieces. After 3 weeks!!! Went to the Dunkin Donuts next door to waste a half hour and see if any staff showed up after lunch. Went back about 12:30 and still no staff. Waited outside until 1:15 PM and spoke to someone driving the van. Called number on the door and left message. Stiil don't have a key to the mailbox here in Randolph. Not sure if P.O. Is forwarding my mail. Went to library after. Got there about 2 PM. Manages to change address associated with section 8 housing. Got number for DTA and Social Security. Got back to Randolph about 5 PM. When I returned someone had delivered furniture with nobody home. People next door must have let them in. Got a TV stand, sofa, 2 chairs and a full dining room set. Ate and spent the rest of the day on computer.

Saturday March 24 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Got up early to go to Boston and the March for Gun Control. Left about 8 AM. Got to Boston about 9:30 AM. I went to distribute my literature, website info, inventions etc. Drank too much coffee. Ate at a food court at Downtown Crossing. Left about 3 PM and got home around 5 PM. Couldn't sleep despite being really tired. Haven't heard from Vinfen worker. Haven't signed rent agreement. Haven't paid rent for March. Don't have key to mailbox. No point complaining, same shit different day.

Sunday March 25 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Did laundry, worked at the computer. Room mate not home all day. Wasn't here last night.

Monday March 26 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. I stayed home all day. No rent agreement. I haven't paid the rent. I don't have a key to the mailbox. I haven't had any mail since February. Called about someone to take me shopping and got run around. The phone number I have for Vinfen main office in Weymouth (??) says 'Mobile” on my cell phone. 781-331-9824. USB tethering doesn't work anymore.

Tuesday March 27 2018 – ND – Went to Turner Library early. Left about 8 AM. Posted on wordpress. Took 2 movies out. Marathon Man with Dustin Hoffman and The Last Picture Show with Cybil Shepard. Needed to go food shopping. Room mate not home all day. Someone was in the apartment when I was out. AGAIN. Can't get my mail. I ordered something and they say it was delivered but I don't have key to mailbox. Called my Vinfen worker to light a fire under him for key. Played phone tag. Came by later but didn't resolve anything. Said he would call tomorrow. Haven't paid rent, don't know what it will be. Haven't heard anything about marijuana I found in cellar. Don't care. Thursday is trash day so I think I'll dispose of it along with the beer bottles. Want to stay home tomorrow and clean, wait for Vinfen to call.

Wednesday March 28 2018 – 9 PM – Nobody called. Stayed home all day. Cleaned, slept. Need to go to the store. Work on changing address. Room mate not home all day. First really nice day of the year. No progress on anything.

Thursday March 29 2018 – ND – Went to Brockton to DTA to change address associated with EBT card. Having trouble with state and fed websites to do that, so I went in person. Then went to Westgate Mall to try to get screwdriver but Sears ignored me. Had a Starbucks shopped at Market Basket and came home. Was back about 2 PM. Room mate not home all day. Vinfen called and left message, said he was working on mailbox key. No rent agreement. Went to library on way to Brockton. Downloaded books. Frankenstein and Kebra Nagast. Returned movies.

Friday March 30 2018 - 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Sorted through my stuff and made a pile to go to Goodwill. Slept. Room mate not home all day. No mailbox key no rent agreement. Read Frankenstein periodically. Expecting my mother on Sunday, Easter. She is then going to Florida for a week to stay with my brother. Leaving Tuesday.

Saturday March 31 2018 – ND – Went to Cambridge to buy a new phone. Best Buy at Galleria. Left about 9:30 AM got back about 3 PM. Tried to transfer SIM from old phone to new and now both don't work. Back to the phone problem. Probably nothing wrong with hardware. Probably a corrupted SIM. Room mate came home late last night and stayed. Was not home when I got back. No Key. No agreement.

Sunday April 1 2018 – ND – Room mate came home in the middle of the night. Left very early. Hasn't been back. Went to lunch with my mother. Got a new SIM at Wal-Mart in Weymouth. Clerk would not install it. Got run around. I think this was intentional. THOSE PEOPLE. The not so famous they them of folk lore and folk song. I installed it when I got home but I have to wait until I can get to the internet to get it started. Expecting snow tomorrow morning. (I have to walk to the library to get to the internet) “Some of them want to use you.....” Sweet Dreams

Monday April 2 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to library early to try to fix phone problem. Got new phone working. Took out some movies. Left about 12 PM. Went straight home. Watched movies. Vinfen worker came by but did not speak to me. I think it was just more harassment. Getting kinda angry at no mail box key. Haven't had any mail since February. Ordered a couple things I can't get them. I think they're playing on that. They play on your fears and anger. Winston was tortured with rats, his worst fear. No rent agreement.

Tuesday April 3 2018 - 7 PM - Stayed home all day. Did laundry, watched movies and got a computer ready to give to Salvation Army. Room mate not home all day. Called Vinfen worker again to give new telephone number. No mailbox key or rent agreement. Someone has encrypted my new phone and I don't have the password.

Wednesday April 4 2018 - 10 PM - Room mate came home just as I was leaving this morning. About 8:30 AM. Wasn't home when I got back about 6 PM. Not home now. Was going to stay home today but sick of sitting in the house. Went to Turner library at 9 AM. Surfed net a little. Took 238 bus to Quincy Center about 10:30 AM. Was going to try to get mail at Patten Ave just to be annoying. They create these problems knowing it aggravates and angers you to try to get you to 'go off'. As long as it bothers you they keep it up. The more it bothers you the worse they make it. There was no mail at Patten Ave of course. Went to Quincy Wal-Mart to get micro-SD for new phone. Tried to put in a 32GB I already had but I couldn't transfer anything when I hooked it up to my PC. Figured maybe it was too large. My new phone is only 16 GB internal so I got 1 that big. I put it in but haven't tried the PC yet. If that doesn't fix it, it might be the fact it's encrypted. I didn't do that and I don't have anyway to undue it. The phone won't let me. ???? Android is a security sieve. Windows is bad, Android is awful. Internet security is an oxy moron. At least the phone works. For now. Went back to Quincy Center after Patten Ave. Took 238 all the way to Randolph. Was going to stop at Plaza but didn't. Went back to Turner Library because it was pouring buckets. Surfed the net a little took out some movies. Went to Shaws and had to walk home. Was really exhausted when I got back. Shout out to anyone who gives a crap.  I think the water in Randolph is really bad. When I was in Weymouth I bought a portable water distiller. Didn't make to Randolph after I got out of Shattuck. $300. ASSHOLES. I think I bought it from nutrateam.com. Or nutriteam.com. Somewhere in Vermont. ???? Took 5 hours to make 1 gallon. Doesn't do me a whole lot of good since I live with people. The minute I leave it unattended it goes bad. HA HA HA!!! Another idea is to leave a gallon or two exposed to the open air for a couple days. Put it in a couple plastic jugs with the top off. Most chemicals will separate. I thinK?? It's in everything I put through the washing machine. So tomorrow I'll run everything through just the dryer to see if it helps. Got home about 6 PM. My room smells funny. Like it did when I was at Patten Ave. It didn't smell this way at first. I still think someone is entering my room when I'm not there. Or it's the water. The bed sucks. My chair sucks. Can't get a good nights sleep. Can't relax. PIG VOMIT. Live Free Or Die (or get even) No mail. No mail box key. No rent agreement. No give a fuck. Catatonia here I come. At least it's painless.

Thursday April 5 2018 - 9 PM - Stayed home all day. Watched movies. Tried to fix bed and chair but didn't get any where. Somebody came to fix gate on fence but they didn't have a key to mail box. Room mate not home all day.

Friday April 6 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to library early. Then to South Shore Plaza. Arrived about 12 PM. Had lunch. Was back about 5 PM. Managed to get mail by asking mailman while he was filling it. Haven't seen Vinfen worker.

Saturday April 7 2018 - ND - Stayed home all day. Re-arranging room. Haven't seen or heard from Vinfen worker. Room mate not home all day. No rent agreement.

Sunday April 8 2018 - 5:30 PM - Stayed home all day. Room mate came by briefly. Said didn't have a rent agreement either. ??? Only been here since February. ??? New room mate on way???? Re-arranged room a little. Got jacked on coffee. HA HA HA "My voice inside your head ......making you fuckin crazy......." Better you and me than just me. Some one edited my diary while I was out. Can't prove it. Can't secure ANYTHING!!! FU FU FU Insanity is a perfectly sane reaction to a completely insane world. When you can't cope with the anxiety, the anxiety copes with you. (that ones mine I want royalties)

Monday April 9 2018 - ND - Stayed home all day, worked at computer. Vinfen worker came by but nothing resolved. Room mate not home all day.

Tuesday April 10 2018 - 6 PM - Stayed home all day. Worked at computer. Room mate not home all day. Need to go to library and store.

Wednesday April 11 2018 - 9 PM - Room mate not home all day. Didn't see Vinfen worker. Nothing resovled. Went to library in Crawford Square at 9 AM. Posted Resonance Newsletter about Gulf War in 1991. psyops pdf. Tried to find related info but was either censored or doesn't exist anymore. raven1 net website for sale according to my surfing. Resonance no longer exists. archive org wouldn't download either. Several tripod sites wouldn't work. Never really sure if people see what I post. Left some printed material under keyboard left a couple in Crawford Square. Going to work on website tomorrow. No point in trying to reassure me somehow. Just saying.

Thursday April 12 2018 - ND - Stayed home all day. Worked at the computer. No mailbox key. No rent agreement. Haven't seen Vinfen worker. Room mate not home all day.

Friday April 13 2018 - ND - Went to library in Crawford Sq about 9 AM. Stayed a couple hrs. Went to South Shore Plaza for coffee. Got back about 2 PM. Went to Shaws and took the 240 bus home. Discovered Vinfen worker had called and left message that he would be by to sign rent agreement. Oh well!! How do those things happen? Under constant total surveillance. Room mate came home at 3:30 AM Sat morning.

Saturday April 14 2018 - ND - Stayed home all day. Worked on the websites. Remembered my website names philipnute com zsezse com zsezse net were due for renewal the past couple months and I don't remember seeing them on the credit card bill. If they're gone someone got into my melbourne it account and stopped automantic renewal. I'm at home typing this and I don't have the internet to check. Room mate left early this morning hasn't been back. Not seeing mom tomorrow because of weather.

Sunday April 15 2018 - ND - Stayed home all day. Weather sucked. Nothing resolved. Room mate not home all day.

Monday April 16 2018 - ND - Weather sucked. Was planning to go to Boston Marathon but didn't. Stayed home all day. Nothing resolved. Room mate not home all day.

Tuesday April 17 2018 - ND - Went to Turner Library in Crawford Square. Stayed til noon. Went to Shaws. Room mate not home all day. Nothing resolved.

Wednesday April 18 2018 - ND - Finally got a mailbox key. Vinfen worker came by and signed rent agreement. Paid rent for March and April. Room mate not home all day. Worked on electronics stuff. Did laundry.

Thursday April 19 2018 -ND - Raining. Went to Crawford Square about 9 AM. Took care of a couple things on the internet at library. Took out a couple movies. Went to CVS. Got home about 2 PM. Watched Goodwill Hunting. It was set in Boston about 1997. Has all your favorite symbolisms. Minnie Driver is Alice. Matt Damon 'the mark'. At the end his friends give him a Chevy Nova. The first 2 cars I owned were Chevy Nova's. ???? I appeared once in South Boston District Court in 1992. I was the plaintiff. Had my car stolen and it was left in South Boston missing the radio. (radio ????) Robin Williams committed suicide while I was in Bridgewater in 2014. ????? I really like the NSA scene where Damon goes off on the interviewer. He's a real smart ass punk in the movie. Supposedly he's covering up the pain of his childhood. Ain't happenin to me. My problem is external. I suffer a terminal case of the human race. I think everyone I worked with over the years knew this and never said anything. They gave me the medication even though they knew it wasn't helping. In the end I wound up as sick as when I started. If not worse. The medication turned into the problem. Can't cure what other people are doing to you if you don't know about it. Now it's too late. Only so much you can do to a person. Only so much time you can steal. All I got left is getting even. Should have done a little more to advertise your presense. "I can't believe in the things,....that don't believe in me...."

Friday April 20 2018 - 8 PM - Stayed home all day. Watched movies. Room mate not home all day.

Saturday April 21 2018 - ND - Went to Turner Library in Crawford Square about 10 AM. Took care of some things on internet. Went to South Shore Plaza about 11 AM. Got a coffee, walked around. Left about 12 PM. Or at least I tried. I waited an hour for the bus. 'Waiting For The Bus' ZZTop. Phone still screwed up. It's encrypted and I didn't do it. For reasons I won't get into 'the enemy' wants all my devices encrypted. Actually I don't know the reasons and I only suspect who's behind it. I may have been sent back to Randolph because there is no internet. I haven't encrypted the hard drive on my new PC. So they wanted me off the internet. Among other reasons probably. I figure everybody knows everything anyway so who cares about security. If it's encrypted only the people with the code can see information. ???? I had put TPM's in both my computers but I gave up trying to secure it. The laptop I'm not sure about. My tablets are hopeless. Room mate not home all day. Haven't seen in a number of days.

Sunday April 22 2018 - ND - Haven't seen room mate for quite some time. Went to lunch with mom. D'Angelo's screwed up my order again. Mom bought a new Lay Z Boy. ????? Slept a lot.

Monday April 23 2018 - Went to library in Crawford Square after going to Quincy Center. Dropped some things off at Goodwill. Bus and Red line were like pulling teeth. Police action at Alewife. ??? Went to Shaws and then home. Room mate not home all day.

Tuesday April 24 2018 - Stayed home all day. Read, watched movies. 'The Hobbit' and 'Lord Of The Rings' by J R R Tolkien. 'The Hobbit' is obviously about a rolling stone. The full title is 'The Hobbit An Unexplained Journey'. The Hobbit, Bilbo Baggins, ends up with a ring that allows for total power. The 'ring' is symbolism that comes up a lot. Richard Wagner wrote operas about the ring. There is a documentary on the intenet titled "Ring Of Power". It's six hours long and goes into the idea that Jesus learned his theology in Tibet. Wagner knew Frederich Nieszche. Room mate came home in the middle of the night and left before 7 AM. Vinfen lost Quincy area contract but I will be staying here for a while. South Shore Mental Health is now the provider.

Wednesday April 25 2018 - ND - It's funny how sometimes the same names or symbolisms appear all at the same time when I was unaware of them before. Or maybe it's not so funny. I graduated high school in 1975. We were required to read J. R. R. Tolkiens 'The Hobbit'. I wonder if thats true today. Anyway. The main character in 'The Hobbit' is Bilbo Baggins. He lives in the shire. One day he is invaded by a group of strangers who insist he accompany them on a journey. At the end he has some kind of magic ring. The book is fantasy. It's set in middle earth where there are all kinds of intelligent races. Elves, dwarfs, humans and sorcerors. The leader of the 'pack' is Gondolf a magician. When I was in Bridgewater there was someone next to me in the dorm with a Gondorf tatoo. He wouldn't stop bothering me. There were a couple other people who did the same. A testament to the power of these people. They can get anyone in or out of Bridgewater at will. Yesterday I watched the movie 'The Sting' starring Paul Newman and Robert Redford. It's about a group of drifters (or grifters) that want to scam an Irish hood named Lonnegan. It's an entire community of con men who know each other and work together. Newmans name is Gondolf and Redfords name is Hooker. It's all very elaborate and in the end they split the take. I also reposted something I came up with last fall about Harry Ashmore and Ho Chi Minh. In the transcript Ashmore mentions someone named Bill Baggs. I have not been able to find any information on this person. Room mate left very early and didn't come back.

Thursday April 26 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to Crawford Square about 10 AM. Had something for sale on ebay. Didn't sell. Last week similar items were going for $100. Why didn't my item sell? Internet is censored. Then on to South Shore Plaza. Watched movies read a book.

Friday April 27 2018 - ND - Stayed home all day. Read, watched movies. Re-reading my copy of "The Vatican Against Europe" by Edmond Paris. Paris along with Avro Manhattan documented the Jasenovac prison camp. He uses the word 'clericalism'. Clericalism  is defined as a policy of increasing or maintaining the power of a religious hierarchy. At the begining he mentions someone named Franz von Papen. He calls him 'the man who knew too much'. Papen was a German statesman and diplomat who played a leading role in dissolving the Weimar Republic and in helping Adolf Hitler to become German chancellor in 1933. The son of a wealthy Catholic landowning family, Papen began his career as a professional soldier. At the beginning of World War I, he was military attaché in Washington, but after being implicated in cases of espionage and sabotage, he was recalled in 1915 at the request of the U.S. government. He was present in Austria when the Germans annexed it. He was then ambassador to Turkey. He released his memoirs in 1952. I only have the German title "Der Wahrheit eine Gasse (Memoirs)" Room mate not home all day.

Saturday April 28 2018 - ND - Went to Turner Library in Crawford Square about 10 AM. Surfed net a little. Looked for information on Franz von Papen and Richard Wagner. Downloaded Wagners "The Art Work Of The Future". Went to Shaws. Room mate not home all day.

Sunday April 29 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. I watched all five of the original "Planet Of The Apes" movies starring Charleton Heston. There is a lot of stuff that relates to what is going on. There is a race of mutant humans who can talk to each other with thier thoughts. They don't kill thier enemies they get thier enemies to kill each other. Trying to understand Wagners "The Nibeling's Ring". Four separate operas based on German/Norse legends, Siegfried and the Valkyries. The Valkyries were women who chose who would die and go to Valhalla. (Valkyries = Alice ??) There was a plot during WWII to overthrow Hitler. It is sometimes referred to as 'The July Plot'. It took place on July 20 1944. The participants called it 'Operation Valkyrie'. There was a movie with Tom Cruise. It failed and most of the conspirators were executed. I wonder in todays surveillance society who were the Valkyries, the conspirators or Hitler.

Monday April 30 2018 - 7 PM - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Watched movie "The Old Man And The Sea" based on Hemingways short story. I also have "A Farewell To Arms" and "For Whom The Bell Tolls"" both based on Hemingway.

Tuesday May 1 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate not home. Went to Boston early to distribute literature. (mine) Nobody cares and neither do I. Waiting for 'it' to make a decision. The longer 'it' puts it off the more damage I might do. I don't care anyway. There's nothing here for me. I hate modern architecture. Most of downtown Boston is strip mall America in big buildings. They (??? i don't know who) seized a lot of real estate under the Urban Development laws and rebuilt it. It sucks. Fascist central planning by the Boston Redevelopment Authority. Where do they ( ??? I don't know who) get off taking property because it's run down. Why don't they give loans to the owners? Maybe they don't like who owns it? EH? An excuse to take property and run them out of town. If the original owners won't fix after being offered loans then maybe. But the building should be taken down and the land sold at auction. I hate fascist central planning, I like the hap hazardness of older cities. I wonder if the original owners were cut out of the banking industry all together. DUH?? The central artery was stupid but that friggin bridge is just as stupid. Whats it for/ It spans maybe 100 ft. If you see an ariel view there's a another bridge right next to it that doesn't have all the stupid wires. You can't walk over it. Whats it for? Why don't they put a 30 story toilet in Copley Square? American cities are unlivable because we do to much to accommodate the automobile. If you had a choice between two jobs and everything was the same: pay, hours, duties etc but one was in a tall building with nice surroundings and the other was in a dirty dingy basement which one would you take? American cities are dingy dirty basements but they're not fixing the problem with fascist central planning. If you own a piece of property you should b able to do what you want with it. Within reason. I think if you work in Boston you should live in Boston. Screw commuting. At some point the number of cars they need to get in and out of Boston is going to collide with a lack of physical space. Most of present day Boston were separate municipalities. Roxbury, Dorchestor, Brighton etc. This is something they (and I don't know who) annexed all the surrounding towns. Why? Tax money? Concentrate power? Do taxes in the neighborhoods subsidize the downtown? Is this corporate welfare? I think this should be reversed. this has happened all over the country. Brooklyn used to be a city.

Wednesday May 2 2018 - 9 PM - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Did laundry. Watched movies. Finally met Sampson the superintendent ??? Works for Vinfen. Worker came by and I paid rent. Worked on inventions at computer.

Thursday May 3 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to library in Crawford Square. Did laundry.

Friday May 4 2018 - 7 PM - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Watched movies.

Saturday May 5 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to Turner Library early. Took out some movies. Then to Shaws. Got a chickenshitted sub. MM MM good.

Sunday May 6 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to lunch with mom. KFC in Brockton. Then to Wal-Mart in Avon. Watched movies. "Breaking Away" and "Play Misty For Me". "Breaking Away" came out in 1979 and was nominated for Academy Awards. Involves the Indiana thing. Indiana comes up a lot. I think (???) southern Indiana has a lot of white people that identify with the south. (I'm not sure) Or it's where Notre Dame is located. But thats N. Indiana. I think people who hold and trade slaves have things in common with people who will chickenshit someone behind thier backs. Both are morally and ethically bankrupt. Birds of a feather. I think ?? I'm not sure that the Pope took the side of the South during the American Civil War. That would make sense.

Monday May 7 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went for a very long walk. Maybe a walk too far. The Blue Hill Reservation isn't far from here. I walked half way around Ponkapoag Pond. Not much to look at or take pictures of in the Blue Hills. Too much brush. Got home about 3:30 PM. Fell asleep. Re-watched Alfred Hitchcocks "North By Northwest" starring Cary Grant and Orson Wells "The Trial" starring Anthony Perkins. Both of these movies are exactly the same. Pretty much. The main character is being chased by people he doesn't know. He doesn't know why. At the end of "The Trial" Perkins dies. "The Trial" was written by Franz Kafka in the 1920's.

Tuesday May 8 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Did laundry. Someone still entering my room when I'm not home. I can't secure the doors between the two sides and Vinfen rents both of them. But I don't know what that means. 'They' know when I'm here and when I'm not and can show up accordingly. In Orson Well's 'The Trial' Anthony Perkins works in some kind of office factory with an enormous computer. Someone says "Why don't you ask the computer what you're charged with?". Perkins doesn't have an answer.

Wednesday May 9 2018 - 10 PM - Room mate not home all day. Went to Dunkin Donuts about 9 AM. Then to Turner Library. Went to Wal-Mart in Avon via the BAT 12 bus. Got back about 2 PM. Watched "Call Of The Wild" with Ricky Schroder. Really bad acting. Jack London liked dogs and Alaska. ??? Just after my father died my mother and some of the family went to Alaska. She said she had always wanted to go. News to me. "Escape is never the safest plan....a dissident is here....." Pearl Jam\

Thursday May 10 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate came home late yesterday. Left mid morning. Was not alone. Stayed home all day. Worked at electronics. Mostly trying to organize.

Friday May 11 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to Boston very early. Caught 6 AM 240 bus to Ashmont. The 240 is torture during rush hour. Distributed literature all day. Started S. Boston went to North End then Symphony and made my way to Boston Public Library. Funny thing. Tried to log on to internet at library but wouldn't work. TOTAL SURVEILLANCE!! Went To Roche Bros downtown crossing got home about 1 PM. Front door was wide open when I came home. Either room mate or next door left it open.

Saturday May 12 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate not home all day. Cleaned. re-arranged room. Listened to Red Sox.

Sunday May 13 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to Quincy Center early. Dropped some things off at Morgan Memorial. Had coffee, lunch and went to Crane Library. Surprise surprise surprise, I got some 1000 emails sent over the last 3 or 4 months that didn't show up anywhere else. INTERNET IS CENSORED!! TOTAL SURVEILLANCE!! Went to Shaws when I got back to Randolph. Then walked home.

Monday May 14 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Cleaned a little. Listened to audio books. "Homage To Catalonia" by George Orwell and "Metamorphosos" by Ovid. At the begining of "Homage To Catalonia" Orwell talks about the fall of Malaga during the Spanish Civil War. He draws the conclusion it was 'treachery' on behalf of his own government, but goes on fighting. Did only part of Ovid. Shakespreare is based partly on Ovid. Trying to understand it. I also read Revelations in the bible. Trying to understand David Koresh. I recently re-watched "Waco: Rules Of Engagement" a documentary about the Waco siege in 1993. It's full of 'Aliester Crowleys'. My mother was born in Waco. ????? I also re-watched "Gimmie Shelter" a documentary about the Rolling Stones free concert at the Altamont Speedway in San Francisco in 1969. It was billed as the West Coast Woodstock. It was later called the end of the love generation. (or something like that) This too is full of Aliester Crowleys. The 'Stones" hired the Hells Angels for security. ??? (and the police let them???) Fights broke out at the front of the stage right from the beginning. The concert went on for hours but the police never showed up. ???? (Aliester Crowley) Eventually a black guy in a green suit (ME ?? when the check clears you can commence fucking off!! ) was stabbed to death by the Angels. No one was ever charged and the police never did anything. ???? At the end of the movie the leader of the Hells Angels, Sonny Barger, (as in House of the Rising SON BARGING in) calls some radio station and blames the Rolling Stones. (and he was never charged??) Kind of admitting it!!! Biker clubs are made up of a lot of ex military (hearing voices ???) The 'stones' (people who won't stand thier ground) are responsible for the bikers hearing voices ???) Is this was Barger is trying to say? My father fought in WWII. He flew 35 missions as a navigator on a B-17 toward the end of the war. He never talked about it much until he retired and started getting together with his crew. He ended up with a pile of literature (which is now lost) that said his unit, the 303rd bomb group 8th Air Force, was called "The Hell's Angels". To me this is too coincidental. I think someone was trying to say something they can't actually spit out. Around the year 2000 I started going to yard sales and selling stuff on ebay. I went to a sale on Rt 18 and picked up a wooden puzzle for a buck. After I put it together and got $400 on the internet. It was a picture of the Zodiac. The guy who sold it to me cleaned out houses for a living. He had to know what it was worth. I think someone was trying to say something. The Zodiac killer stalked San Francisco in the early 1970's just after the Summer Of Love (genocide) He was never caught. I think he was the cops, people who also went through the military. (hearing voices Dirty Harry ????) Bullet ???? Lure the 'deadbeats' to San Fran with promises of free love, or welfare as they do today, and kill them with mind fuck cops. (do ya feel lucky punk...??) Transmaniacon MC Blue Oyster Cult Hunter S Thompson wrote something about the Angels and they didn't like him afterward.(Gonzo, as in dead man, journalism)

Tuesday May 15 2018 - ND - Room mate came home in the middle of the night. Stayed until Wed morning. I had doctors appt at 10 AM. Vinfen worker came about 8 AM and brought me there and back. Went to Turner Library at 12 PM. Then to Shaws. Walked home.

Wednesday May 16 2018 - 7 PM - Room mate left about 10 AM. Stayed home all day. Did laundry. Slept.

Thursday May 17 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to Wal-Mart Avon. Needed some bug spray, get out of the house. "If you don't know how to do it,...I'll show you how to walk the dog......" The church might as well be the Roman Coliseum because it serves the same purpose. Didn't sleep. On Tuesday dr said I had hernia in my abdomen. I don't believe it. I think the health care system in America is Auschwitz and people are paying through the nose for the priviledge. My father was conned into a heart bypass he didn't need that eventually killed him. I suspect my grandfather was murdered also in August 1960. St Lukes hospital New Bedford. He went in for a anuerism is his leg and died on the operating table. My father then spent a couple years dealing with the IRS. I think this is where he learned to hate the government. When I left the dr's office they tried to recommend as surgeon and I said I didn't think it was that bad. When I stop eating the swelling goes away. Like the scene in "Leprachaun". Dr's office left message today that my PSA was high and the dr wants to talk, but the results came in the mail and everything is fine. 781-353-9393

Friday May 18 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate not home all day. Went to Boston to distribute literature. North End. Collection of evidence that the government is about to put a lot of people in FEMA camps. Since WWII at least a half dozen countries in the Western Hemisphere have gone through periods of tyranny where people were rounded up and sent to camps. Mostly South America. Most of the police and military involved were trained at WHINSEC at Ft Benning Georgia. (formerly The School Of The Americas) Tactics may have been developed by the French during the Algierian War of the 1950's. The French Connection. (Horacio Verbitsky "Argentinas Dirty War") La Cite Catholique or L'Action Francais a shadowy extremist catholic group like Spains Opus Dei. Roger Trinquier "Modern Warfare". Military juntas would put people in helicopters, fly as far out to sea as possible and drop them. The Disappeared of Argentina. Jasenovac in Croatia WWII. The more things change, the more they stay the same. I've got it boiled down to 3 sentences. The Catholic church has never stopped killing people. The world everyone lives in is very very very close to George Orwells "1984". The Pope is Big Brother.

Saturday May 19 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to library. South Shore Plaza.

Sunday May 20 2018 - 7 PM - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Watched movies. All day yesterday I planned to watch "A Tree Grows In Brooklyn" but when I put it in my DVD drive it didn't work. Funny how those things happen. I think someone has been in my stuff, AGAIN. I wanted to try to figure out the health insurance thing. I think the health care system is Auschwitz. Anyway I found another movie "Collateral" starring Tom Cruise. You'd be surprised how many DVD's I thought I did have that I don't and how many I'm pretty sure I never bought. ???? Whatever. "Collateral" is very "Pulp Fiction" esque. It's a mystery as to exactly what the mystery is. At the end you don't know any more than at the beginning. ??? "Natural Born Killers" is the same. All 3 have an endless trail of dead bodies. I think Tom Cruise and Kim CAR DASHian are Aleister Crowleys. "I was born in a class 5 hurricane,,,,,, jumpin jack flash is a gas gas gas....." My radio and stupidvision is reporting that 4 teenagers died in a crash in East Bridgewater over night. ??? And 10 people were shot and killed in another school shooting in Texas. ???? So I got in my car and tried to run,,,,,"jumpin jack flash is a gas gas gas...." Or maybe anyone in the neighborhood. ??? Why would I start believing any of this now??? Catholic guilt, someone else is always responsible for what we do. Power corrupts. Knowledge is power, power is dangerous. At the end Cruise is left dead on the MTA like Charlie.....! No he never returned...! Is this a real movie!!! Can I have my Brooklyn DVD back? ASSHOLES!!!! Then I watched "Poltergiest". It reminded me of Edgar Allan Poe's "The Fall Of The House Of Usher". ??? "Can I see you to your seats?" "The Pit And The Pendulum" "Gen LaSalle has entered Toledo. The Inquisition is in the hands of it's enemies." Is this life imitating art or art imitating life? ???? What if the NSA data facility in Utah were to fall into the hands of the 'wrong' people? What if 'they' 'it' 'the thing' documented all of it's crimes along with everybody elses? CYA ya know, in case Darth Vadar is tempted to go over to the light side? Maybe Free Masons can think in terms of 200 years like 'it'. One day they were going to throw it all under the bus. Or maybe it just happened? Or maybe not? ??? "And the lamb,,,,lies down,,,,,on Broadway...." Stayed tuned. Same fucked up time. Same fucked up channel.

Monday May 21 2018 - ND - Room mate came home late. Went to Quincy Center just for something to do. Distributed literature. I have been researching the life of Howard Hughes. I've already come to the conclusion that Hughes was a loud mouth internet troll. Like Edgar Allan Poe, Frederich Neitschze a few others. Hughes made movies from the 1920's into the 1960's. If you know what to look for it's all about the same thing. I think the Spruce Goose represents the New World Order. He knew it would never get off the ground. He knew who was the real power. The chickenshit hero army. He suffered from them.

Tuesday May 22 2018 - - Room mate left mid morning. I've been watching Howard Hughes movies. I think Hughes was a loud mouth internet troll. Yesterday I said the Spruce Goose represented the New World Order but today I think it's Hughes himself. He was never going to fly. "Learning to fly.....condition grounded............but determined to try..........." Pink Floyd So far I've watched "Scarface", "Hell's Angels" and "The Outlaw". I want to get "The Front Page". I think this was re-made in the 1970's and won an Oscar. "Scarface" is loosely based on the life of Al Capone. At the very beginning Hughes says something like "This is happening all over America and the government won't do anything...." Or something like that. "God wants organized crime...." What God Wants Roger Waters "Hell's Angels" is set during WWI. I didn't get it. "The Outlaw" is about Billy the Kid and Doc Holiday and Pat Garrett. Set in Lincoln New Mexico in the Old West. A lot of obvious symbols. ??? I also watched "Bonnie and Clyde" with Faye Dunaway and Warren Beaty. Two losers with no reason to live like "Thelma and Louise" I re-watched part of "Valkyrie" starring Tom Cruise. I am looking for clues that might prove that Hitler was on to the plot and those involved were sacrificed like Wagner's Valkyrie. Valkyrie is when hand maids chose who will die to save them from an agonizing death. (I got that from the movie) Staufenberg (spelling ??) ends up, because of a series of events that don't seem accidental, the chief of staff for the reserve army. He had already exposed himself to Gen Fromm, who is in charge of that army, and he would not go along. That General then introduces Staufenberg to Hitler for some reason. Staufenberg uses the occasion to get Hitler to sign a copy of the amended Operation Valkyrie that Fromm was unaware of. Gen Fromm goes along. ???? Staufenbergs wife lived until 2006 or 8. ??? If it happened exactly that way I think it was doomed from the beginning. I also listened to a couple chapters of my audio book "The Twelve Ceasars" by Gauis Suetonius Tranquillus. At the end of the second part Ceasar has crossed the Rubicon and started the civil war that ended the Roman Republic. On the other side he gives a speech where he references "the golden ring". The ring is also mentioned by Wagner and Tolkien and others. ????

Wednesday May 23 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to Boston to distribute literature. Went straight to Kenmore on the Green Line. Walked all over. Ended up at Boston Public Library about noon. Computer didn't work again. Walked to Downtown Crossing. Hung around for a half an hour. Took Red Line at South Station back to Ashmont. Took 240 all the way to Crawford Square and went to Turner Library. When I got there all computers were being used. SURVEILLANCE. So I waited for one. Produced a mouth poop and took out a couple movies. "Spartacus", "Stepford Wives" (re-make), "Zorba The Greek" and "Zodiac". In the past I 've listed the Rock N Roll songs I think are about mind control. This is a list of movies. "Stepford Wives" Originally released in the 1970's remade in 2004. "Westworld" Originally released in the 1970's, might have been remade. "Manchurian Candidate" Originally released in the early 1960's remade not that long ago. "Island Of Dr Moreau" Originally released in the 1930's remade several times. The most revealing is the most recent with Marlon Brando. "Invasion Of The Body Snatchers" Originally released in the 1950's remade several times. I ate and drank very little all day and was expecting a good nights sleep but instead I was up all night. They got me with the water at the very end of the day. Oh well sleeps over rated.

Thursday May 24 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate not home all day. Worked on a mock up of the Chemical/Mechanical High Wattage Pulse Generator. Want to take some pictures and update internet. Watched the movies. "Zodiac" is about the Zodiac killer. He terrorized San Francisco in the late 1960's and early 1970's. I think "he" is an Aleister Crowley created by the police. (an 'Aleister Crowley" is an attempt to use the media without their knowledge and leave historical evidence) If you 'run' because of the harassment you might be killed by the police. "Who ya gonna call   .. Ghostbusters...." Some police may object so they left an Aleister Crowley. EEPROM (E)lectrically (E)rasable (P)rogrammable (R)ead (O)nly (M)emory aka a thumb drive, USB drive in todays world. Manchurian Candidates. The Zodiac is a reference to Claudius Ptolemy who came up with the heliocentric (word ??) theory of the universe in about 150 AD (I think ??) The theory places the earth at the center of the universe not the sun. He may have done this to appeal to the ego of the Romans who believed they were Gods. (thats a total guess) The Romans are responsible for the calendar we use. It has been updated several times to correct for the 'wobble' of the earths rotation which is a problem with one kind of Zodiac but not the sidereal zodiac. Watching the movie there is one murder that is completely out of place. It occurs at the corner of Washington and Cherry St's in San Francisco. George Washington cut down a cherry tree and told the truth????

Friday May 25 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Worked on Chemical/Mechanical High Wattage Pulse Generator. Watched movies. "Zorba The Greek" starring Anthony Quinn. Has a lot of the same symbols. No mail, no food. Need to go to store.

Saturday May 26 2018 - ND - Room mate came home about 2 AM. Left about 9 AM. Went to Turner Library in Crawford Square about 9 AM. Then on to Quincy Center. Got back about 4 PM. Been thinking about the Zodiac thing. Julius Caesar updated the calendar after taking power. This happened just before the birth of Christ. Was the Julian calendar based on the idea that the earth revolves around the sun? Why did they prosecute Galileo? When did they start thinking the sun revolved around the earth? Claudius Ptolemy? What does this prove?

Sunday May 27 2018 - ND - Room mate came home in the middle of the night. Left early. Went to lunch with Mom. Brought Christos back to Randolph. Watched Woody Allen's 'Sleeper". This is my list of movies and music about people being frozen then defrosted in another time: Sleeper, Austin Powers International Man Of Mystery, Apeman, Being There starring Peter Sellers and Black Sabbath's "Ironman". Woody Allen nose too much. Need to clone the nose.

Monday May 28 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate came home 2 AM left about 12 noon. Stayed home all day. Slept, did laundry.

Tuesday May 29 2018 - ND - Room mate came home about 8 PM for a half an hour. Went to Boston to distribute literature. Got off Red Line at Broadway and walked A Street to Summer then through North End and got back on Red Line at South Station. Got to Ashmont walked up Dorchester Ave to Star Market in Lower Mills. Got all kinds of chickenshitted food. $35 so I have to eat it.

Wednesday May 30 2018 - ND - Room mate came and went a couple times. Came back about 1:30 Thursday morning and stayed. I stayed home all day. Slept.

Thursday May 31 2018 - ND - Room mate was home until 12 noon. Came back middle of the night. Went to Wal-Mart in Avon. Then to Turner Library but it was closed. I didn't get there until 5 PM. Went to Rite-Aid. Got back about 6 PM. Watched 'The Front Page" with Jack Lemon and Walter Matthau and 'Soylent Green' with Charleton Heston.

Friday June 1 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Went to Turner Library in Crawford Square early. Downloaded a copy of "Metropolis" by Fritz Lang. It's a German silent movie made about 1926. He also did a movie titled "Die Nibelungar" which I think is related to Wagners operas. Tried to fast all day and get the accumulated chickenshit out of my body. My abdomen is still swollen. This helps after 24 hrs or so. Dr says its elevated PSA but it could be anything.

Saturday June 2 2018 - 6 PM - Room mate not home. Did laundry. Slept. Still fasting until about 5 PM. Got hungry. Ordered Chinese delivered from Wongs Kitchen 1179 N Main St Randolph. Came chickenshitted. Need to go to store.

Sunday June 3 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Ate the rest of chickenshitted chinese food. Watched Austin Powers movies.

Monday June 4 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate not home all day. Went to Turner Library. Computer I used was chickenshitted. Pouring rain all day. Got some movies. Went to Shaws. Waited too long for bus. Again. Bus driver plugged in? ?? Pizza defrosted.

Tuesday June 5 2018 - 9:30 PM - Room mate came home about 2:30 AM. Slept until 11 AM. Cooked an entire turkey alone then left about 3 PM. ????? Stayed home all day. Watched movies, worked on electronics. "Bonfire Of The Vanities", "The Hunt For Red October" and "All Quiet On The Western Front". I watched "Bonfire" because Tom Wolff died recently. Kinda OK. "The Hunt For Red October" might have been based on an actual event. Thats what it says at the beginning. It's sort of a "Dr Strangelove" going the opposite direction. This time it's a crazy Russian who almost starts a nuclear war. "All Quiet On The Western Front" won the very first Oscar for Best Picture in 1929. It follows a group of Germans from school, into the army and off to war. It's mostly about the horror and hardships of war. And how useless it all is. At the very end the last man left is killed by a sniper while he reaches for a butterfly. This might have something to do with Papilon and Devils Island and The Dreyfus Affair. I don't know. The Dreyfus Affair took place around the turn of the century. A lot of people left the church because of it. WWI might have been fought to reverse this. ??? Fits Orwell's theory. Liberalism is anything anyone wants to do that hasn't been approved by the pope. I think I'll re-watch "Alexander Nevsky" and "Potemkin"  tomorrow. I've been building a couple test set ups. Probably never use them for anything but it breaks up the boredom.

Wednesday June 6 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Watched movies.

Thursday June 7 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate came home in the middle of the night. Left about 10 AM. Stayed home all day. Need to go to store. Slept.

Friday June 8 2018 - ND - Room mate came home late. Was still here when I left about 9 AM. Went to Turner Library in Crawford Square. Left about 10:30 AM. Went to Quincy center. Went to Family Dollar. On to Crane Library. Took out 5 movies. "The Fly" with Jeff Goldblum. "The Three Faces Of Eve" with Joane Woodward. "Hamlet" with Kenneth Branagh. "Robocop". "Robocop" wasn't much. "The Fly" is really creepy. Also got something on astronomy with Neil DeGrasse Tyson written by Carl Sagan. According to disc 1 Christmas was designated as Dec 25 because it was the day after the festival of Saturnalia. Saturnalia was a Roman festival that began on Dec 17 and ended on Dec 24. It was a kind of end of year bender where everyone got smashed and sexed. The day after was made Christmas so people could recover. ??? Dec 25 is also the birthday of Mithra an Iranian god. Saturn was the Roman god of agriculture. Saturday was supposedly named after him. If you look up 'feasts' in the Encyclopedia Britannica you can find Saturnalia. I haven't watched the others.

Saturday June 9 2018 - 9 PM - Room mate came home very late. Had someone with them. About 1 AM the fire alarm went off. It had been beeping for weeks. One of them knocked the alarms off the ceiling and went back to bed. They are still sitting on the floor. I didn't do it. I'm not picking them up. They left about 1 PM. Stayed home all day. Slept. Watched movies all day. Worked on electronics. Watched some of 'Cosmos' with Neil DeGrasse Tyson. Interesting but not really what I wanted. I would like something about the physics and math involved with astronomy. I would like to look into the history of math as it applies to astronomy. Who knew what when. I don't read most of the books I mention. I figure there's no point. The chance's I get an actual copy are remote. I take a short description of the book and a short biography of the author and try to fit in into the bigger picture. I try to come up with something that absolutely can't be disputed. Yesterday I mentioned Saturnalia but it's possible this was 'fed' to me and is bogus. Have you ever seen a picture of Merlin the Magician? He's usually got a long gown covered with stars and half moons and things. A 'priest-astrologer'. If you knew astronomy in ancient times you could use it to control people. You tell them it's astrology, written in the stars. There's one set of knowledge for the rich and powerful and one for the peon's. Chemistry, biology a couple other tricks. According to Orwell "A heirarchal society is only possible on the basis of poverty and ignorance". This is the only reason they need to collapse society and impoverish everyone. definition: clericalism - a policy of increasing or maintaining the power of a religous heirarchy

Sunday June 10 2018 - Room mate came home very late. Not alone. Left mid morning. Stayed home all day. Watched movies worked on electronics. Watched "Three Faces Of Eve". It's about a split personality or multiple personality. This was a topic popular in the 50's 60's and 70's. Another book and movie about multiples was "Sybil". Supposedly these things are caused by extreme trauma. A person can deal with trauma in at least three ways. Denial, blocking something out or splitting. Denial is very common. Someone won't deal with a problem thats obvious to others. Blocking something out is a little more severe. It can cause extreme anxiety. Multiple personality disorder is really extreme. I don't believe it. The controversy might have been some cover story for people under mind control. I am building an Arduino trainer. Thats what I call it. Its a piece of plywood with a power supply that has 4 outputs that total 100 watts. I bought a kit on ebay of about 40 different transducers and I want to go through each one. I also bought a touch screen for Arduino. I have been working on it for quite some time. I have nothing else to do.

Monday June 11 2018 - Room mate came home very late. Not alone. Left early. Went to Quincy Center to return library items. Surfed internet while there. Wanted to eat at Burger King. It was closed because of power failure. Only at Burger King. These are the type of things that make me paranoid. I think someone with synthetic telepathy closed it because I was headed there. "Paranoia Paranoia everybodys out to get me......" I also went to Quincy to distribute literature despite being warned by the Quincy Police. (pig lice is worse than head lice ya know) Nothing happened but tomorrows another day. Gonna stay home for a couple days. Work on my stupid projects.

Tuesday June 12 2018 - ND - Room mate left early. Stayed home all day.Worked on electronics. Got some really nasth Teddy Root Beer and Little Debbie Donuts yesterday at the Star Market in Dorchester Lower Mill store. In the unopened package off the shelf. Kept me up all night. Sometimes the soda has been opened but not this time. All I ate after that was hash browns.

Wednesday June 13 2018 - 10 PM - Room mate not home all day. Worked on electronics all day. Discovered at the end the Arduino software doesn't work. Everytime I upload the program I get a message that says "avrdude: stk500 , getsync() ....." (roughly) avrdude???? Pig vomit in my computer AGAIN!!! Well back to shooting my mouth off. Out of food and have to go to store. Waste some more money.

Thursday June 14 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate not home all day. Went to Boston to distribute literature. Started around South Station and Chinatown. Made my way to Boston Common and had a cup of coffee. Then on to Boston Public Library. And back to Downtown and South Station. Got off at JFK/UMass and went to Star Market next door. Got back on red line and walked from Ashmont to Lower Mills. Got back about 5 PM. Nothing unusual happened. Common was crawling with kids and tourists. So was red line. Surfed net a little at library. When I got back I couldn't relax in my chair. I think a vomit chickenshitted it while I was out. Or maybe it was the ice in freezer. I don't know. Managed to fall asleep on bed.

Friday June 15 2018 - 9 PM - Room mate came home about 10 PM last night. Not alone. Left about 10 AM this morning. Stayed home all day. Did laundry, slept. Worked on websites. Organized electronics.

Saturday June 16 2018 - ND - Room mate not home. Went to Turner Library early. Then Wal-Mart in Avon. Had some real trouble getting the things home. Bought too much and was walking. Really sore.

Sunday June 17 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate came home about 1:30 AM. Alone. Left about 11 AM. Not home now. Stayed home all day. Recover from yesterdays trip to Wal-Mart. Organized electronics. Watched movies and worked on website. Watched "Invasion Of The Body Snatchers" with Donald Sutherland and a couple Hitchcock movies including "The 39 Steps" and 'Vertigo". Couple of these were set in San Francisco. I think you could learn a lot about the way things really work by studying the history of San Francisco from about 1950 to today. The Beatniks of North Beach. Jack Kerouac, Alan Ginsberg. The Summer of Love. Jefferson Airplane, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Janis Joplin, The Grateful Dead, The Dead Kennedys, Green Day. Dirty Harry The Zodiac Killer. Anton Levay and the Church of Satan. Michael Aquino and the Temple Of Set. Jim Jones and Guyana. San Francisco was the gay capital of America in the 1970's. It became the high tech center in the 80's and 90's. Both movies are sort of about mind control. Whats going on there?

Monday June 18 2018 - ND - Room mate left about 10 AM. Didn't come home late. Hasn't been home since. Stayed home all day. Organized electronics. Watched movies. Pulp Fiction by Quentin Tarantino. Don't really understand it. Jackie Brown and Reservoir Dogs are just as weird. Kinda get Jackie Brown.

Tuesday June 19 2018 - 8:30 PM - Room mate not home since Sunday. Went to Quincy Center early. Went to Social Security. Office has moved to 1515 Hancock St. Had real trouble finding it. Wanted to make sure they had the right address. I have been having trouble with website. (duhhh ) Like everything else on the internet. Noticed my monthly amount went down a couple months ago and I don't know why. I thought I might be able to switch to retirement from disability when I'm 62 in February. I didn't understand what she said. I thought it might be more and I could get a small apartment. Forget it I guess.

Wednesday June 20 2018 - 6 PM - Room mate not home all day. Vinfen worker came to fix smoke alarms. He went out for a few minutes to get a key to room mates room. My food got chickenshitted sometime after he left. He may have let someone in to room mates room. May still be there. I stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Finally got some where with Arduino. Watched GMO documentaries. Then listened to the Van Halen album OU812. (Oh you ate one too!!!) It has the song "Right Now'. GMO's (genetically modified organisms) are a hot topic for some. GMO's give a handful of companies total control over the food supply. Scientists believe that they alter the organisms that eat them. The genes of the children yet born will differ from ours. And not in good ways. (Oh you ate one too!!) This means everybody!!! Flouride in the water. (Oh you ate one too!!)

Thursday June 21 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate came home about 9:30 yesterday. Couldn't get into room. Slept in spare room. May not have been alone when arrived. But alone in morning. Left about 9:30 AM. I think I've come up with a way to solve the high cost of housing in Boston. Create a pile of worthless wood pulp and then build too many apartments to flood the market. Presto chango the price goes down! It's amazing what worthless wood pulp can do when it really wants to. Then I thought to myself, this is not a difficult concept. Why are things like this? There are whole groups of people 'on the outs' in this country and everything is run to keep them broke and homeless. Only fascist over achievers need apply. (see I'm a thought criminal) Water in Randolph really really nasty. Punishing everyone for the non-action of one. I got no problem with it. '”....if I go there will be trouble.......if I stay it will be double....” Got no problem with that either.

Friday June 22 2018 – ND – Room mate not home. Went to Grossman Dr Braintree. Got a coupon for the new Hobby Lobby store. Didn't but anything. Went to Best Buy then to Thayer Public Library in Braintree. Walked to Braintree Five Corners and ate at Panera. Took 238 back to Randolph. Went to Shaws then walked home. Got back about 5 PM.

Saturday June 23 2018 – 9:30 PM – Room mate came home about 4 PM. Was not alone. Is still sleeping in spare room because door locked. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Want to learn how to program Arduino. Bought a 3.5 inch TFT display that fits into the MCU module. (brand name Kuman) Bought on ebay. Came with all kinds of software routines. Starting to understand it a little better. I want to build a necklace that emits EMR to mimic the EMR of my brain and throat. I think maybe I could vary the output signals with my heart rate and temperature. I would A/D my heart rate and operate on it with the MCU and output brain signals. The antenna would go around my neck. I would like to suit the church for this but I'm thinking it's hopeless. I would like to see a successful criminal prosecution for the murder of my father but it will probably end like “The Murders In The Rue Morgue” by Edgar Allen Poe. No one was charged or prosecuted because the murders were committed by an orangutan. Any civil action would probably end the same.

Sunday June 24 2018 - 7 PM - Room mate came home late yesterday. Stayed until about 12 PM today. Still locked out of room. Went to lunch with Mom. Papa Ginos South Weymouth. I think ??? my pizza was chickenshitted. Not sure. Probably more cancer causing agent. Abdomen still swollen. Don't give a shit. Why seek help? Will just get tortured with more drugs. Over the weekend I watched a PBS documentary on The Spartans hosted by Betteny Hughes. The Spartans existed during the time Greece was made up of city states. Before Alexander the Great but after Aggememnon and the Trojan War. Spartans were a militaristic culture. They practised a form of eugenics. They enslaved anyone they could. Spartan citizenship was reserved for a military elite. The eventually fell because there weren't enough citizens. Even thier wars were fought by slaves. Rome supposedly modeled themselves after Sparta. Which would make sense. German Nazi's also admired them. They believed in racial purity and supremacy.

Monday June 25 2018 - 11 PM - Room mate not home all day. Vinfen worker came by and unlocked room mates door. Said goob bye. South Shore Mental Health takes over this facility on July 1. He did not want to transfer to SSMH. Went to Turner Library about 9 AM. Surfed net a little. Then went to Wal-Mart in Avon. Got back about 2 PM. Got movies at library. Amistad, Treasure Island, Alphaville (foriegn), Kidnapped, Postman Always Rings Twice, Dirty Harry. Amistad is about a slave ship that revolted at sea and then landed in New England in 1839. The slaves were eventually represented by former president John Adams. They were freed and allowed to return to Africa. A couple things I got at Wal-Mart were chickenshitted right off the shelf. Pretzels and Doritos. Seems like whenever I go to a store, and I mean any store, the snack aisle is being re-stocked while I am there. This has happened numerous times in numerous stores in the past 3 years. The soda aisle also. I know there are a only a couple companies that sell snacks and soda. Just saying. How does this happen?

Tuesday June 26 2018 - ND - Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Vinfen has not cashed June rent. Next month I am supposed to pay South Shore Mental Health. 500 Victory Dr Quincy. I wonder if 'they' have something cooked up to make me homeless?

Wednesday June 27 2018 - 8 PM - Room mate came home last night. Left about 10 AM. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Learning C programming language to work with Arduino MCU. Want to go back to Social Security to try and get an answer about retiring at 62 in February. Need to get out of the house.

Thursday June 28 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Went to library in Crawford Square. Then on to Quincy Center. Poured buckets all day. Ate at Peking Kitchen. Food extra chickenshitted. Went to Crane Library in Quincy. Went back to Social Security. If I switch from disability to retirement I would get less than what I get now. I'm stuck. Re-watched “Apolcalypse Now” with Martin Sheen. Col Kurtz, a sacrificial cow. ??? “PBR Street Gang this is Almighty over” “The HORROR” (American 'coming out of the closet day' ???)

Friday June 29 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Did laundry. Tried to fast and get all the chickenshit out of me. I ate a bag of microwave Uncle Bens rice I bought at Wal-Mart in Avon just before bed. Really bad decision. Working on Arduino brain simulator. Coming to a dead end. Need information on digital to analog converters. Ordered something from All Electronics (dot) com but didn't get confirmation email. Not sure order went through. My email and my snail mail are filtered through pig vomit. Tampering with the US mail is a felony. But some people are above the law. I mean pig vomit. The brain simulator would mimic as many human signals as possible for an Arduino to jam Silent Sound Spread Spectrum (S Quad). S Quad was used by the US military during the First Gulf War. (ITV News Bulletin “Military Use Of Mind Control Weapons”) Some Arduino's have 50 pins that can be configured as outputs. I figure I can put all the signals on a ribbon cable and wear it around my neck.

Saturday June 30 2018 – ND – Room mate came home this morning. Was here when I got back. Left about 2 PM. Went to Turner Free Library in Crawford Square. Surfed net. Needed information on digital to analog converters. I have been listening to Janes Addiction. They released a couple albums in the late 1980's and a couple about 10 years ago. Some of the members were also in Porno For Pyros a band from the 1990's. I think 'Jane' is a fictional persona like Don Juan or Faust. She might have been invented by Andy Warhol. She shows up in a number of songs. 'Jane' by Jefferson Starship, 'Sweet Jane' by Lou Reed among others. Jane represents an English woman who originally settled North America. Janes addiction is the apolcalypse. She can't stop thinking about the end of the world. “Jane says......I'm done with Sergio,......Treats me like a rag doll..” The inspiration for Jane might have been Edie Sedgwick. The last name Sedgwick doesn't get any more English. Edie was the star of Andy Warhol's movies.  “Edie Ciao Baby” a song by The Cult. Don Juan as a fictional persona began showing up after the Protestant Reformation. Don Juan can't keep his pants on. Plumbism is a sickness caused by lead poisoning. Lead is a metal. They word is derived from plumbing because they used to make water pipes out of lead. People who suffer from plumbism have an over active libido. 'Psycho pathia Sexualis,.....I'm in love with a horse that comes from Dallas.....” Lenny Bruce Faust also began to show up after the Reformation. The definitive book on Faust was written by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe. Faust sells his soul to the devil in exchange for something. “The devil went down to Georgia,....he was looking for a soul to steal....' Charlie Daniels Band Goethe fought in the Napoleonic Wars on the side of the monarchists. I've also been thinking about graffiti and graffiti artists. When I left Social Security the other day someone was spray painting the wall in the alley next door. In broad daylight. Whatever. In the movie 'Serpico' they're standing on a subway platform and one of them is trying to get a bag of potato chips out of a vending machine. On the side of the machine it says “God Wants You In Church Often”. Potato? Vegetable head. Mr Potato Head? A kids toy? Serpico had his own potato problems. In the movie “Being There” with Peter Sellers he leaves his house for the first time in his life after his family dies. He's about 60 years. He realizes he lives in ghetto. On a wall he passes by it says “America Ain't Shit Because The White Man Has A God Complex”. “Being There” is another movie about someone who was 'frozen' most of his life.

Sunday July 1 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. They make small EEPROM's for Arduino that will record a small amount of audio then store it in the EEPROM. I think?? I bought one recently at All Electronics (dot) com. It's like a thumb drive with a microphone. I wonder if it's possible to substitute a couple electrodes for the microphone and record sub-vocal speech. I have a PDF of how to hook up an ECG with electrodes. They use a differential amplifier using op-amps to remove noise. You could record a couple minutes of sub-vocal speech and play it over and over. If you are really desperate for clean water you could defrost your freezer and save the ice. If you are really really desperate they sell table top water distillers for about $200 at nutrateam (dot) com. (or nutriteam) ?? I had one when I lived in Weymouth. It took 5 hours to make 1 gallon. Another idea would be to collect water with a de-humidifier. Then distill it. De-humidifier's can be bought pretty much anywhere. Watched a lot of music videos. Pearl Jam at Madison Square Garden, The Police in 2007, and Queen at Wembley Stadium.

Monday July 2 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Watched videos, worked on electronics. Watched a Rolling Stones concert from Austin Texas. Watched the movie “Deer Hunter” with Robert de Niro and others. Made in the 1970's. About a group of blue collar yahoo's from Pittsburgh. They work in a steel mill and go deer hunting on the weekends. Some of them join the military and go to Vietnam. I think it's a commentary on American life. At the end they're all depressed or something and singing “God Bless America”. Wanna go somewhere tomorrow. Anywhere.

Tuesday July 3 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Definition: plumbism – lead poisoning esp. when chronic (look it up in the dictionary) Went to Quincy Center just for something to do. Looked at de-humidifiers at Wal-Mart. The smallest they had was about $150. It would extract 50 pints (approx) of water every 24 hours. Thats more than a gallon. The larger model was about $200 and would extract 70 pints. (I think) I got this idea from the movie “Dr Strangelove, Or How I Stopped Worrying And Learned To Love The Bomb” starring Peter Sellers. The crazy general will only drink rain water or distilled grain alcohol. Went to Angelinas for a sub. Over to the Crane Library then home. Everything I bought at Shaws in Crawford Square was chickenshitted. Went to bed very sick. Got almost no sleep.

Wednesday July 4 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate not home all day. Got almost no sleep because of crap in food. Went to Boston to distribute literature on the Esplanade. Couldn't get in. Cops everywhere with barricades. This is freedom? DUM DUM DUM. “......All police are paranoid........” Bush It's the morelocks. The morelocks were the cannibals in H G Wells movie “The Time Machine”. Thought about to South Weymouth tomorrow just to get in 'their' face. MOOOOOOOOOOOVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! Maybe I've changed my mind. Kinda tired. Come to dead end with Arduinio Brain Simulator.

Thursday July 5 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Slept watched movies did laundry. Been thinking about de-humidifier and water distiller. You could manufacture a separate piece of equipment that does all of this in one. And sell it to home owners and restaurants. It would take the pressure off local water departments. It would be one less thing 'they' could harass you with. If you didn't pay the water bill I mean.

Friday July 6 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Went to Wal-Mart in Avon. The Turner Library in Crawford Square. Re-ordered stuff from All Electronics. Went to Papa Ginos then Shaws and home. Poured buckets for a couple hours.

Saturday July 7 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Cleaned. Watched movies. I re-watched “Midnight Cowboy” with Dustin Hoffman and Jon Voight. Started watching “The Odyssey” with Armand Assante but didn't finish. Wondered why there is an Orpheum Theatre in almost every city. There is no word Orpheum in the dictionary but there is an Orpheus. Orpheus was a Greek god who was a very gifted musician. He tried to get his wife out of Hades somehow.

Sunday July 8 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate not home all day. Went to lunch with Mom. Watched a couplr documentaries. “Titicut Follies” and “Zeitgeist 3”. “Titicut Follies” was made in 1966 by Frederich Wiseman. It's about life in Bridgewater State Hospital in Massachusetts. It was banned in Massachusetts for 30 years. Conditions in Bridgewater were really bad at the time. At the beginning one of the guards tells a joke. He uses two Beatles instead of four. He only needed two for a conversation. A 'Mulligan' in golf is a do over. (redemption?) “Zeitgeist 3” goes into depth about the problems with capitalism. The first thing they say is the capitalist society creates sick people because of socioeconomic status. They then say that any country that has as it's GDP health care and health services requires sick and dying people to stay in the black. They say the debt based currency system makes its own problems and is one of the most wasteful in history and is doomed to fail. Some points I believe some I don't. The only thing they can't reverse is the end of oil. Overpopulation is a problem they don't mention. The second half they propose a new system that requires global control. This is where they lost me. If capitalism is doomed to fail I say just let it go. And from the ashes rose a Phoenix. As long as the Phoenix isn't created by the same people who have created every other Phoenix. Let serendipity rule. Shit happens. When the smoke clears the same people who ran it into ground shouldn't wind up with it.

Monday July 9 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate came home late yesterday. Left early today. Not here now. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Trying to get an MCP4725 digital to analog converter to work with an Arduino UNO. Tried using a breakout board I bought a long time ago but had trouble. I mounted the Arduino on a one sided protoboard and put the Arduino connectors next to it. It leaves me access to Arduino components. Never got to power it up. Watched “3 Days Of The Condor” starring Robert Redford. In the 1970's people were trying desperately to save the California condor. A really big bird. There were only 10 left or something. Operation Condor was the CIA's program to help South American military juntas fight communists. 'Rainmaker' was a song by Traffic that came out in the 1960's. Redford works for the American Literary Historical Society. It's a front for the CIA. They read detective novels and look for techniques the CIA might be able to use. At the very beginning Redford knows exactly when the rain will begin and end. And he's right. He gets sent out for lunch and when he comes back everyone's dead. He starts running. The problem was that he had discovered a CIA inside the CIA and they wanted him dead. At the end he discovers it was about oil and future plans for the USA to invade the Middle East. This was before the oil embargo in the 1970's. He tells the New York Times and is confident that will protect him. As the movie closes hes behind some Salvation Army volunteers ringing bells at Christmas.

Tuesday July 10 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. Worked on Arduino most of the morning. Got sick of the house. Went to Turner Library. Started watching youtube. One of my favs is The Corbett Report. They had something new about China. He keeps calling China Communist. China is State Capitalism. Or State Run Capitalism. It hasn't been Communism since at least the 1990's It's probably never been Communism. “They” run everything. “They” have always run everything. I think it was one of the Rockefellers who said “Competition is a sin”. This is why China is State Capitalism. If you want to see the future of America look at China or any country in South America. You'd think they would know when enough is enough. They spend billions on PR to make themselves look like good guys to the people at the bottom. So they get it but they don't do it. ??? Talk about disconnected. CRAZY. Monopoly, game over. Why is it necessary to play monopoly? It's easier to control 1000, 100 billionairies than 10 million millionairies. The power behind the throne that is.

Wednesday July 11 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics and watched movies. I have come to believe the health care system is Auschwitz America. And we're all paying through the nose for the privilege. My grandfather died in Aug 1960 in St Lukes Hospital in New Bedford. He went in for an operation on his leg and died on the operating table. My father had a bypass at Tufts New England Medical Center in Nov 2007. He never recovered. He got bounced around every nursing home and emergency room on the south shore until he died on March 31 2008. It seemed like every time I thought up some way to make trouble he got moved to a different place. A neighbor, Nick Sabatino, died almost simultaneously in Florida. Last month, or the month before, I got a physical. Harbor Medical Associates Weymouth. I have had a swollen abdomen for over a year. If I stop eating it gets better. The doctor diagnosed it as a hernia. Suggested a surgeon. I don't know what it is. I don't care. Watched “American Beauty” starring Kevin Spacey. Reminded me of “The Great Gatsby”. Spacey, the main character, dies at the end almost by accident. Everyone is obsessed with sex and money. Dysfunction Junction. Most of the relationships are unhealthy. Then I watched “Anatomy Of A Murder” starring Jimmy Stewart. I didn't really get it.

Thursday July 12 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. Was going to stay home but didn't. Wanted to get out of the house. Went to library in Crawford Square then to Quincy Center. When I got back I watched the movie “Close Encounters Of The Third Kind”. It's a Steven Speilberg movie. I remember seeing it when it was in theaters in the 1970's. At the beginning this little kid from Indiana gets kidnapped by space aliens. The kid always has a t-shirt on that says “BOSTON UNIVERISITY”. Everybody that sees the aliens start running. They all seem to think that Devils Tower in Wyoming has something to do with it but they don't know what. Devils Tower is a weird geological formation in Wyoming. As they approach Devils Tower they pass all sorts of dead animals. The two main characters get to the top of Devils Tower and watch the aliens land with the help of the US Military. In the end the kid is returned. Col Kurtz: “Are you an assassin” Capt Willard: “I'm a soldier” Col Kurtz: “You're neither........................You, are an errand boy sent by grocery clerks to collect a bill...”

Friday July 13 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Did laundry worked on electronics watched movies. Trying to get a sine wave to come out of an Arduino UNO R3 using code I got from AdaFruit. More complicated than I expected. Watched 'Pleasantville” with Reese Witherspoon. It might be about mind control of an entire community. There is a song by The Monkees “Pleasant Valley Sunday”. It may be related. Everything is black and white in Pleasantville until the two main characters show up. They're from the future. (I think) They teach the 'mind controlled' how to live. ?? I guess. At the end one stays in the past the other goes back.

Saturday July 14 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Did laundry watched movies. I ripped some of my movies to my hard drive. While ripping the DVD “Blow” I noticed it had extras. “Blow” starred Johnny Depp. It was about George Jung who was also from Weymouth. Jung was involved with cocaine trafficers from Columbia in the 1970's and 80's. The extras on the DVD were part of a documentary titled “Lost Paradise”. Though the DVD called it “Cartel”. It was about the effects of the cocaine trade on Columbia. Columbia's economy became dependent on cocaine. It caused a war that went on so long even the guerrillas used cocaine to fund their cause. This eventually corrupted them. FARC was a communist guerrilla group that had people in America investing money on the stock market. Another group called M-19 had it's beginnings in the student uprisings of the 1960's. This was before cocaine. It too was corrupted. Why are so many South American organizations named with a 'M”? I know there is a group called MS-13. All they need is the people at the top. Everybody else just follows orders. Started watching “Willy Wonka” with Gene Wilder. Didn't finish it.

Sunday July 15 2018 – 9 PM – Room mate not home all day. Went shopping. Needed to get out of the house. Wal-Mart in Avon. Brought one of my tablets to surf net at Dunkin Donuts inside Wal-Mart. When I tried to get email I needed the phone that I left home. This has never happened before. I couldn't get into either email account to retrieve security code. ASSHOLES. Finished watching “Willy Wonka”. Baruch Assualt was the name of a Rock N Roll band a long time ago. ?? An everlasting dobstopper could mean everlasting GOD stopper. ??? I also watched “Blow” with Johnny Depp. While at Wal-Mart I tried to look for videos on FARC and other South American Communist groups. Couldn't find any. Would like to buy a book by Horatio Verbitsky who was in the Argentina group Monteneros. Maybe I could get books by others who were in guerrilla groups. Operation Condor was the CIA program that help destroy these groups. I would like to research this. When I got back some of my food had been chickenshitted. I think the coffee at DD was chickenshitted. They know I have to walk a long way with my purchases so they're tailoring the chickenshit to make that difficult. I almost fainted a couple times.

Monday July 16 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Watched the movie “Network” starring Peter Finch. This came out in 1976. (I think) Ned Beatty gives a long speech to Finch about how the people who run the Soviet Union are motivated by money. Everybody is corrupt and trying to get as much as they can. Even the leader of the American Communist Party. I think money is how they stopped many of the communist groups in South America during the 1970's.  Yesterday I said I thought an everlasting dobstopper was an everlasting God stopper but today I think it's an everlasting dog (Cujo) stopper. Everlasting Oompa Loompa stopper. (“When I was in special forces, we went into a village to inoculate the children........”) Col Kurtz

Tuesday July 17 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Went to library and Quincy Center. Got back about 3 PM. Gave up on the Arduino simulator for a while. Spending too much money on it. Been thinking about water purification. Also waste disposal. How did NASA handle the poop in space? I wonder if there is some way to vaporize household waste instead of hooking everyone up to a sewerage system. Are there already patents on this?

Wednesday July 18 2018 – 7 PM – Room mate not home all day. Watched the movie “Wag The Dog” starring Dustin Hoffman and Robert De Niro. I remember when this movie came out Bill Clinton was accused of doing the exact same thing with the war in Bosnia. The movie is about a political operative who fakes a war on TV to distract the media away from a scandal during an election. The real 'dogs', the CIA and military, aren't fooled and get involved to stop it. There is a scene where Hoffman and De Niro are throwing shoes into a tree. I have seen shoes hanging from telephone wires and other places for decades and wondered why people do it. The movie doesn't explain. In the end Hoffman is murdered because he wouldn't play along anymore. I also watched a documentary on Joe McCarthy by Lutz Hachmeister. It's half documentary and half movie. They paint McCarthy as a self serving, self promoting opportunist who didn't care about communism one way or the other. He used the issue to create a political career. The movie theorizes that the Army McCarthy hearings were a plot by the CIA to bring down McCarthy with public opinion. And it worked.

Thursday July 19 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate not home all day. About 6 people came by around 11 AM to look at the empty room. I might be getting a new room mate. I know one of the people worked for Vinfen, I guess they transferred to SSMH. I think this is in response to what I said yesterday on my blog www.philipnute.wordpress.com. Who cares!! My life is ruined. There is no moving on. I lost a long time ago. I'm a born loser. It can't get any worse and it's never getting any better. Virtual suicide by social outcast. Whatever. I was going to stay home today but changed my mind. I had changed it before they arrived. And they showed up just as I was leaving. ??? Perfect timing. ??? Went to Quincy Center to return movies to library. Got sick of sitting in house. Got back about 4 PM. Watched “To Kill A Mockingbird” starring Gregory Peck.  Really interesting. Don't know what to say. I identify with Boo (Arthur) Radley, the outcast white person. In the end he kills the father of the girl who made the rape allegation and nobody does anything. Bought more Arduino stuff. I wish I could stop doing that.

Friday July 20 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. I am trying to fit an Arduino Nano into a small enclosure to fit in my pocket and operate on 9 volts.

Saturday July 21 2018 – ND – Room mate came home late, left early. Stayed home all day. Slept, worked at computer. Watched “Dr Strangelove”. Running out of food.

Sunday July 22 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate came home late. Left early. I went shopping early this morning. Got some soda that's short carbon dioxide. Funny thing is I was warned about this over the radio the preceding couple of days. ???? (see exercise above) “....turn on the radio,.....naa fuck it, ….....turn it off,.......fears your only god on the radio.......” Re-watched the documentary “Ring Of Power” by Amenstop productions. It's a 6 hour long doc that begins with the problems associated with Sept 11 and gets into Egyptian history going back to Ahmenhotep. A lot of what they say has serious holes in it but all in all I think they understand the problem because they call themselves AMEN STOP. STOP GOD. Maybe they suffered the invisible chickenshit heroes and so they had a information problem. Like me. Ahmenhotep was an Egyptian Pharaoh who tried to change the religion while he was alive. He thought the cult of Amen had become too powerful. After he died the Egyptians went right back to what they knew. Ahmenhotep built a new city for the god. It was abandoned after he died. One of the greatest relics of Egyptian civilization is the Temple of Karnak. Tutankamen succeeded Ahmenhotep. His grave is the only grave they have found that was intact. This seems suspicious. The cult of Amen is very similar to the Trinity of Christianity. Amen was the chief Egyptian god like Zeus or Jupiter. Two other gods were Mut and Re. They make up the trinity. The doc says that we are all ruled by the descendants of the rulers of Egypt. They believe the Queen of England is a direct descendant. They also say we are currently under the Empire of the City. The 3 cities are Washington DC, London and the Vatican. Washington is the military arm, London is the financial and Vatican is the spiritual. They say the future has an anti-christ rising and uniting everyone under a global government. All religions will accept him because he has ties to all of them. A new religion will be created.

Monday July 23 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate not home all day. Went to library early. Then to the bank and hung around Crawford Square. Got home about noon. Had appointment with new worker from SSMH at 5:30. Slept. Re-watched Bill Maher “Religulous”. Was not overtly insulting, like some people we know, but thinks religion is silly. Makes the point repeatedly that millions are waiting to be raptured into heaven after the Battle Of Armegeddon. Arma geddon outta here, a youra geddon outta here wera all a geddon outta here. (see)

Tuesday July 24 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Watched “The Secret Of Oz” with Bill Still. Went over a lot of banking stuff. The history of central banking in America.

Wednesday July 25 2018 – 8 PM – Room mate not home all day. Went to Quincy for appointment at SSMH. Be there 2:30. Had to fill something out. ??? I don't care. Probably just harassment. Made me hang around until 5 PM for a ride home. It was raining off and on so I couldn't take bus. Need to go to store.

Thursday July 26 2018 – 9 PM – Room mate not home all day. Went to library. Shaws and McDonalds. Thought of something really nasty. What if, every girl Ted Bundy ever murdered was sent in his direction by the police. HMMMM. Mom and sister coming tomorrow for Mom's B'Day. Watched some of the Concert For Bangladesh at library. I think Bangladesh was formed from a mass chickenshitting. I think this is happening again in Burma. I think it happened in Boston in the 1950's and 60's. I think it happened in Seattle in the 1980's. This spawned Grunge Rock N Roll and the meth epidemic in King County Washington. I think chickenshitting is standard operating procedure for the church. Now they have synthetic telepathy and THEY ARE OUT OF CONTROL.

Friday July 27 2018 – ND – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Mom and Cindy came about 5:30 for dinner. Left about 6:30. Watched “A Few Good Men” starring Tom Cruise. Didn't really focus on it. Should watch it again. Yesterday watched “The Color Of Money” starring Tom Cruise. ????

Saturday July 28 2018 – 9 PM – Room mate not home all day. Went to Turner Free Library in Crawford Square. Went to Shaws then back home. Watched “The Billion Dollar Brain” starring Michael Caine. This must have been in the 70's because he looked young. The ending reminded me of “Alexander Nevsky” by Eisenstein. The final battle took place on a frozen lake. The good guys win and the invasion is repelled.

Sunday July 29 2018 – 9 PM – Room mate not home all day. Stayed home all day. Slept, watched movies. Watched “The Vatican Tapes” with Olivia Dudley (????) As I was watching I came up with a new diddy. Someone should have said to one of the fathers “this world is fuckin bull shit and you're the cow” The main character, Angela, gets attacked by a raven and becomes possessed. A priest tries to exorcise her but she is the AntiChrist. Millions of people follow her which is what the Vatican fears most. ???? The raven thing is reminiscent of Edgar Allen Poe's poem “The Raven”. The movie says the bird is a messenger of the devil but I think it's the church. Reminds me of one of my favorite poems “Out of the night that covers me Black as the pit from pole to pole I thank whatever Gods may be For my unconquerable soul In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody but unbowed Beyond this place of rath and tears Looms but the horror of the shade And yet the menace of the years finds and shall find me unafraid It matters not how straight the gate How charged with punishments the scroll I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul “...all I asked for was a frickin rotating chair....” Anyway don't follow me I'm lost too. TA Ta For now

Monday July 30 2018 – ND  - Room mate not home all day. Got a new room mate. Went to Cambridge to distribute literature. Harvard Square. Went to Newbury Comics and got 3 movies. Then to Kendall Square and the Galleria. Bought a new computer to carry around with me. Got home about 2 PM. Watched “Goodfellas” with Paul Sorvino. About Henry Hill a mobster from the 60's and 70's. Also watched “The Big Lebowski” with Jeff Bridges.

Tuesday July 31 2018 -9 PM – First room mate not home all day. Second room mate home most of the time. I stayed home all day. Watched “Deliverance” starring Burt Reynolds. I remember when this movie came out. The song Dueling Banjos was a hit on the radio. I think the 'river' is the endless stream of people who 'hit the road' trying to redeem themselves in the eyes of the church. (rolling stones) The 'river' is mentioned in many many songs and movies. Proud Mary by CCR. Tom Sawyer by Rush. Damn The River by Alice In Chains. 'A River Runs Through It' is a movie with Robert Redford. The symbolism of the river is also present in India. (I think) In the movie the hillbillies who are being forced to move harass the main characters who are just vacationing on the river. Things go downhill and a couple people die. I think both sides in this have Rock N Roll bands they follow. Hence Dueling Banjos. I'm talking in general.

Wednesday August 1 2018 – 8 PM – First room mate not home all day. Second room mate came and went. I went to Crawford Square and South Shore Plaza. Got back about 2 PM. I was looking for a laptop case for my new computer. Didn't find one. Did grocery shopping at Target.

Thursday August 2 2018 – 8 PM – The chickenshit cowards are back. Some of my food went bad after I got it home. Stayed home all day. Slept, watched movies. Watched “Taxi Driver” with Robert DeNiro. Crazy man.

Friday August 3 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on websites. I have come to the conclusion that several movies I have bought and checked from the library are bogus. They include “Wag The Dog” and “The Big Lebowski”. “The Big Lebowski” I bought at Newbury Comics on Monday of this week. I don't know where my copy of “Wag The Dog” came from. So I guess I have to find something else to do. Need to go to the store. Planning to post new version of “All My Inventions” tomorrow.

Saturday August 4 2018 -9 PM – Went to Brockton to distribute literature. Downtown then Westgate Mall. Started raining while at Mall. Got back to Randolph about 1 PM. Went to library to wait for it to stop raining. Think there was a god maggot faggot there 'listening' to my thoughts. Pond scum wouldn't wait for response so I started Korn 'Right Now' my favorite FU song. Took out some movies. “God wants organized crime........What God wants,....God gets God help us all,.......” Watched a couple mafia movies recently. “Godfather” starring Marlon Brando and “The Valachi Papers” starring Charles Bronson. “The Valachi Papers” is supposed to be based on a true story but I believe (I'm not sure) it was all proven to be a lie. Organized crime, aka Mafia, died in the 1980's. I think the whole thing was allowed to happen. The government could have stopped it whenever they wanted. It was allowed to go on as an excuse to build a militarized police force. Police state. The torch got passed to drugs in the 80's and now it's Islamic terrorism. We live in a police state because someday the great 'freedom' (dumb dumb dumb) experiment will be over. 1984. Yesterday I re-watched “Orwell Rolls In His Grave” a documentary by a former 60 Minutes producer. Tangible proof the end is near. Got home around 5 PM. Gonna stay home a couple days.

Sunday Aug 5 2018 – 9 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics, watched movies. Watched a movie titled “City Of Fear”. It came on a DVD with 6 movies about prison. A prisoner escapes San Quentin with what he thinks is a million dollars in heroin but is actually Cobalt-60 a very dangerous substance. He gets very sick from carrying it around. Other people start to get sick. The police are frantic to find him without telling the public about the danger for fear of a panic. Sounds kinda like my situation. Sort of. ??? It's similar to “Soylent Green” starring Charlton Heston. Some people chose to die instead of revealing the secret. I don't give a crap. I say you have to break some eggs to make an omelet. If the church should die in all this oh well. All good things must end. All bad things must end. I guess all things must end. I understand it's difficult to have social and economic collapse with so many people but all the pig vomit race has done to me in 62 years is inflict emotional and psychological pain. So how does it feel?

Monday Aug 6 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Was supposed to meet SSMH worker at 5:30 but she called instead. ??? I wonder if she's another Alice. ER at CBFS. A funny thing happened. The Vinfen housing maintenance worker came by to fix the smoke alarm. AGAIN. Why Vinfen? Why not SSMH? Are 'they' cooking up another scheme to make me homeless? Does ER get it? ???? She is attractive. ??? Watched a couple movies.

Tuesday Aug 7 2018 – ND – Went to Westgate Mall in Brockton. Got off BAT 12 at South St Avon and walked through D W Griffin Park. Kinda over did it. When I got to Westgate I wanted something to drink. The cooler with water was locked in the Dunkin Donuts. ??? How did they know? I got a Orange Crush from a vending machine but it was warm. As I was approaching the machine someone was just closing it. ??? How did they know? Decided not to walk the return trip and the BAT 4 to BAT center then the 12 back to Randolph. Bought some food at Market Basket. Some of it isn't any good.

Wednesday August 8 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Tried to sleep, ate crap food. Watched “MacBeth” by Shakespeare. The version made by ROMAN Polanski after the Manson Family murders. MacBeth is about regicide, or the killing of a king and the chaos, killing and war it causes. I think Shakespeare was also saying something about how the church manipulates the people at the top. At the very beginning three witches tell MacBeth and Banquo what will happen before it does. MacBeth returns to the witches later for an explanation but doesn't get one. There isn't a lot of lead up to the actual killing other than dialogue between MacBeth and Lady Macbeth to say why they are doing it. Blind ambition. Just what the church ordered. Anyone with blinders on is easily manipulated. When the king is in their castle MacBeth changes his mind but Lady MacBeth talks him back into it. Then she drugs the guards. MacBeth starts hallucinating. Sounds like the chickenshit heroes to me!! ??? People on drugs do crazy things. After the king is gone MacBeth keeps killing until he loses his head. Literally. Just like Sean Connery's character in “The Man Who Would Be King”.

Thursday August 9 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center early. Left about 8 AM. Was supposed to meet a Mathew Lynn at SSMH 460 Quincy Ave at 2 PM. He didn't show. It's an all day mission for me to get to Quincy. I think the whole thing was harassment. Well I don't got nothin to do and all day to do it anyway. Went to Crane library and got some movies and cd's. When I got back to Randolph I went to Turner Library to rip cd's. It was late and I couldn't get it done. They shut off the computer before I could get them out of it on a USB stick. They waited until I had enough done.

Friday August 10 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Watched movies. “Rebel Without A cause” starring James Dean. One of those movies where everyone's F'd Up. “West Side Story” and “The Last Picture Show” for example. The chickenshit hero army had been there. “Hey Jude (juded) don't make it bad,.............take a sad song and make it better,.............remember to let her (Proud Mary keeps on burn in) into your heart,...........then you can start to make it better.....” Too late!!! “My love is vengeance,.that's never free............... No one knows what it's like to be the bad man..............” “Officer Krupke …...........” “The Fall Of The House Of Usher” I also watched “Hannah Arendt” by Zeitgeist Films. It came out in 2013. I'm not sure if it has anything to do with the Zeitgeist Movement, which I think was BS. Since the truth wears a veil in Western Civilization I wasn't shocked that I didn't really learn anything. Hannah Arendt was a German Jew who survived one of Hitlers Camps. She wrote a book titled “The Origins Of Totalitarianism” around the time of WWII. The movie calls it abstract, which would make sense because you can't say that. (the truth) Arendt was a student of Martin Heidegger a philosopher before the war. Heidegger ultimately supported the Nazi's. The opening scene has a man being dropped off in the middle of nowhere. Then he is picked up by a military transport. They show his flash light on the ground. This is never explained. My guess is that Arendt left Gurs as a Judenrat to be reunited with her husband. I am not a holocaust denier but I do deny the official story. I think the camps killed 'juded' people not just 'jews'. A juded person is anyone who is f'd up by drugs or metal poisoning possibly because they do not believe in god. But I think the list of reasons you could end up 'juded' is as long as the list of reasons you could wind up on the floor of a Roman Colosseum. It's endless. I believe Hitlers camps were moved to Israel after the war. The elite knew their asses were covered by surveillance, mind control and the lies in the media. Israel is an apartied state. Fascism Forever.

Saturday August 11 2018 – 9 PM – Went to Turner Library early. Then to Quincy Center about 10:30 AM. Returned movies to Crane Library. Had lunch at Peking Kitchen. Got back about 3 PM. Poured buckets off and on.

Sunday August 12 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Slept, worked on electronics. One of my tools broke. The bench lamp with magnifier. I may have been 'warned' about this yesterday on the 238 bus coming back from Quincy. ??? Trying to get MCP4728 mounted on a surface mount adapter. Chip is miniscule. MSOP package. I want to experiment as a DIP. If I can't get the A/D to operate as a sine wave I might be able to use it with a voltage controlled oscillator. (VCO) The output of the A/D would control the oscillator and wouldn't have to change that much.

Monday August 13 2018 – 9 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Damp and cloudy all day. Met with ER about 5 PM. Need to go to store.

Tuesday August 14 2018 – 8 PM – Met with Michael Lynn from SSMH. I think this is just more harassment. Whatever!!! I don't care. Same shit different day. Went to Westgate Mall Brockton. Got a chickenshitted coffee at Starbucks and a chicenshitted frozen chocolate from Dunkin Donuts. MMM MMM Good. Paid about 6 bucks for that. Ever watch the 2nd Austin Powers movie. He starts drinking coffee that is actually Fat Bastards shit. “That is shit Austin......” Went to Market Basket. The juries out on what I bought there. However when I got home I think my powered tea went bad. There was a brand new tool box on the kitchen table. HMMMM Someone may have thought I would pilfer this to make up for my lamp. HA HA HA I'm sure they would have complained and I would have been slammed into the hospital for paranoia. Shove some pills down my throat. “Paranoia paranoia everybody's out to get me..............” I have no cooth, as my father would say. But it's true. The health care system is Auschwitz America. All I started out to do was stop taking pills and stop seeing psychiatrists and move on with my life and it's turned into a life long struggle and international incident. What other conclusion is there. 'The lunatic is on the grass,.........the lunatic is on the grass........remembering games and daisy chains and laughs..............got to keep the loonies on the path.” Pink Floyd 1973

Wednesday August 15 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Met with new SSMH worker. Slept.

Thursday August 16 2018 - ND – Went to Quincy Center. Needed a couple things at Wal-Mart. Went to library and got a couple movies. I re-watched “Pink Floyd Live At Pompei” recently. The one they did in 1972 or 73 not the latest one. They switch to Roger Waters and he says: ' When the great economic collapse comes it's going to happen right across the board. I mean I don't think Rock N Roll will go first, right now the market for Rock N Roll is expanding at a phenomenal rate..” Took me a while to figure out what he meant, but this is what I've come up with. At some point in the not to distant future the unstoppable force known as the infinite growth paradigm perpetuated by the fractional reserve central banking system will hit the immoveable object known as the end of fossil fuels. When that happens George Orwell's '1984' will REALLY take shape. We're going to have thought police, and telescreens and prol areas and 2 minutes of hate. To put things into perspective it's like Alcoholics Anonymous “One drinks too many, a millions not enough”. “We have too much power captain. We need to take some Lithium Crystals for our megalomania” signed “Beam me up Scotty, there's no loving life down here” If ??? when ??? this happens a number of problems arise. There will be no running water. The system that supplies water is heavily dependent on electricity for pumps, motors etc. The system that takes waste away from houses also stops for the same reason. People start bathing in the water and other things. This spreads disease and people start to die. Some people get very angry at this and start guarding the water with guns They kill anyone who gets near etc etc etc. This is all in the plan. And when the smoke clears the same people who ran it into the ground will be in control. They will have surveillance and mind control and advanced wireless communications to hold power forever. I would like to be alone but not isolated. I would like to be free to do what I want. In the event anyone asks me what I want “I want to be Ted Kazinski in a crowd” You can call me the “I'm A Bummer”.

Friday August 17 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Watched movies. “Alfie” starring Michael Caine.  Alfie's a dog, I guess.  Caine narrates as the movie goes on. Sort of like a 'inner voice'. He's a womanizer, in it for the fun. At one point he sees a doctor who tells him he has 2 shadows on his lung x ray. ??? He sweats for no reason and doesn't sleep well. Sounds like the chickenshit hero army to me. “The Elephant Man” starring John Hurt. It's about a real person named John Merrick who was a side show freak in 19 th century England. He was badly disfigured. He became well known to London society. An elephant is the land equivalent of the whale.  (Moby Dick ??) I think Moby Dick represents the church. “The Elephant Man”, “The Picture Of Dorian Grey” and me have something in common. ???? “The Last Of The Mohicans” starring Daniel Day Lewis. Written by James Fenimore Cooper in the 19 th century. It's about the extinction of a small Indian tribe. HMMMM ???

Saturday August 18 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center to return videos. Ate lunch at Angelino's. Chickenshit pizza HHMM MHH Good. Went to Starbucks for a double shot of chickenshit and thats what I got. How did they know I was headed there? Maybe there's one working there and all they had to do was wire ahead. HA HA HA Thats a yoke son I made a funny. Watched “The English Patient” with Willem Dafoe. Same thing as “The Picture Of Dorian Grey” and “The Elephant Man”. I Think? Difficult to follow. They don't identify some people until the end. And they never explain who the nurse is.

Sunday August 19 2018 – ND – Went to lunch with mom. Burger King Holbrook. Went to Dunkin Donuts after. Watched “The Natural” starring Robert Redford. It's about a baseball player who is shot with a silver bullet just before his career starts. Fast forward 15 years and he tries to get into baseball with the New York Knights. He leads them to a pennant and then retires to his boyhood farm with his girlfriend.

Monday August 20 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Did laundry. Met with SSMH worker at noon.

Tuesday August 21 2018 – 8 PM – Went out today. Had lunch. Coffee. New computer stopped getting on the internet. I have made a point of not downloading anything. So in my opinion it proves they can just push viruses or malware on to a computer. I sometimes wonder if it's Microsoft and their updates. It has Windows 10 and no matter how I try I can't get it to stop updating automatically. Along with a number of other things it won't stop doing. You change the setting in Windows and it does as it pleases. Oh well I guess I'll have to go back to the library.

Wednesday August 22 2018 – 8 PM – Got a really crappy night's sleep. Went out about 10 AM. Coffee and lunch then to library in Crawford Square. Got some movies. Watched “ The Omega Man” starring Charleton Heston. Omega is the last letter of the Greek alphabet. There is a song by The Police “ The Omega Man”. There is a concept “The Omega Point” by Pierre Teilhard De Chardin a Catholic Jesuit priest. It's set in Los Angeles in the early 1970's. A Russian- Chinese war has resulted in global germ warfare and most of the population has died. Heston survived intact and is pursued by a gang of mutants. He is the last man. The omega man. He eventually discovers there are others intact and tries to join them. The disk was damaged and I couldn't finish it. “A star falls, a phone call, it joins all,......synchronicity..........” Synchronicity I by The Police 1983 Whenever a new technology is invented someone has to figure out how to use it. I think when synthetic telepathy was invented Pierre Teilhard De Chardin figured out how to use it for genocide. Synthetic Telepathy is the ability to read a persons mind using electronics. De Chardin came up with the Omega Point. They already knew that a “juded''person had an endless stream of angry nasty thoughts. De Chardin figured out if you beam those thoughts into others they would eventually hate the person. I think this is the Singularity and Omega Point.

Thursday August 23 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Trying to get a sine wave out of a MCP4725 D/A. I know it can be done with a math equation based on trig. Sine has some constant relationship with a right triangle. Once I get that to work I am going to try to vary it to make a transient wave.

Friday August 24 2018 – ND – Went to Brockton to distribute literature. Got off the BAT 12 at South St Avon and walked to the Westgate Mall. Took the bus home.

Saturday August 25 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics.

Sunday August 26 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Quincy Center, Brought my new computer. Managed to get on internet. It still does things I don't want. I have tried repeatedly to remove the Cortana assistant from the toolbar with no success. I can't remove the HP assistant either. Or Microsoft Edge. These things can't be a mistake. I think Microsoft has to be involved. My Google Android phone is just as messed up. People used to follow Bill Gates around and hit him with a pie whenever they could. I wonder if they know something. One of my inventions is an alternative communication network. It's more like a suggestion. It would create a relay type phone system that cannot be controlled by anyone. If you wanted to secure it from this type of problem you would have to physically separate the operating system, permanent memory and working memory from the antenna input and give the phone limited functionality. If you wanted to make sure no one messed with the software you could put a separate connector for all software. The connector would have an extra physical connection that would enable the changes. You would have to have actual physical possession of the phone to change anything. You could house the phone in a case to make it look like a normal cell phone. For whatever reason the FBI and the federal government don't want to allow everyone to be able to encrypt their communications. ????

Monday August 27 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Re-watched “Bush” a documentary by William Karel. The Bush administration was just as corrupt as the Clinton. One of my recent posts included the phrase JANET Airlines JUST ANOTHER NON EXISTANT TERMINAL. I'm pretty sure I got that phrase from the radio very recently. Either WBZ or WRKO. This is the official name for JANET Airlines the planes that fly into Area 51. I sometimes get other messages. Most people would think it's crazy and it probably is. One such message I was getting last year was that I should encrypt my hard drive. I bought a couple TPM's (Trusted Platform Modules) and installed them into my computers. I later removed them. I recently bought a Motorola e 4 smart phone and I am using Tracfone as a service. My permanent memory is encrypted but I didn't do it. I'm not sure who or why. The phone does as it pleases. When I buy a new PIN for more time the data works for about 24 hrs then stops. It updates when it wants and I can't stop it. I am having similar problems with a new computer I bought. I think these things are done by large corporations including Microsoft and Google. They ( and I'm not sure who) want my hard drive encrypted but not my communications. Encrypted communications cannot be intercepted. (I think) ???

Tuesday August 28 2018 – ND – Went to library and South Shore Plaza. Got home about 3 PM. I have been re-watching some of my documentaries. “The World According To Bush” by William Karel, “Clinton Chronicles” and “Clinton Cash”. All three prove both the Bush and Clinton administrations were corrupt. “The Iron Triangle, The Carlye Group” is about the global war machine and the politicians involved. Pretty much everybody. “Orwell Rolls In His Grave” is by a former 60 Minutes producer. Next topic. I'm pretty sure the FBI took someone to court to stop them from encrypting their phone's communication signal. I want to say this happened in Colorado but I'm not sure.  In the documentary “Missing Links” they mention a company called RSA. They came up with a way to encrypt digital signals. “Missing Links” was produced by former and current members of the FBI, CIA, NSA and the military who are still loyal to America. At least that's what they say at the beginning. It spends almost an hour listing people with dual American and Israeli citizenship who hold very important positions in the government. Including Michael Chertoff who at one point ran the Department Of Homeland Security. DHS has a liason is every single law enforcement agency in the country. They also go into ZoomCopters and the Israeli art students who occupied part of the World Trade Center just prior to the attacks. They spend a lot of time blaming Jews but I think thats a natural tendency for people at the bottom. I tend to go off on Catholics too much. I think the real problem is people at the top. They 'play' the people at the bottom against each other using ethnicity, religion, race etc. Any thing that works is good. Let no division die. It's frustrating when things drag on for years and years. If blowing shit up and killing each other was normal this country would have descended into civil war a long time ago. And there is no political solution. The dickless faggot god whores have all the 'civil' avenues to change blocked. I don't give a fuck anymore. My job is to get my ass beat so other people will produce more crap for the rich to cling to power. Scarecrow. If it's starting to bother you knock it off. It's all I know and I just don't care. “Whats a poor boy to do but sing for a Rock N Roll band”

Wednesday August 29 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Slept watched movies.

Thursday August 30 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Braintree. Got back early. Watched “Giant” starring James Dean. For some reason I only have half of the movie. ???

Friday August 31 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched “Being John Malkovich”. Near the beginning they do a puppet show that seems like “Pyramus and Thisbe”. “Pyramus and Thisbe” is a love story from Ancient Babylon. It was included in “Metamorphosos” by Ovid and then “A Midsummers Night Dream” by Shakespeare. It's about 2 lovers who can only communicate through a wall. Their parents won't consent to the union. They decide to run away. Both end up dead. I think the wall in this case is the fact everyone is living their relationship through John Malkovich. Given up on electronics for a while. Having too much difficulty getting the I2C bus to work. I have been thinking about the electronic toilet.

Saturday Sept 1 2018 – 7 PM - Watched “Giant” starring James Dean, Elizabeth Taylor and Rock Hudson. Has two story lines. One follows the Benedicts (Hudson, Taylor) a Texas millionaire rancher and Jett Rink (J. R.) (Dean) one of Benedicts ranch hands who makes millions in oil. Benedicts (Benedict Arnold (New World Order)) Jett Rink (as in West Side Story) ?? It's kind of a soap opera. Follows the characters through most of their lives. There was a TV show in the late 1970's titled “Dallas”. It was the first real prime time soap opera. It centered on a Texas oil clan and the head J. R. Ewing. At the end of one season someone shot J.R. and everyone talked about it all summer. I have always wondered if it had something to do with the assassination of J.F.K. ???? I don't know. My copy of “Giant” is on 2 discs. ??? I have been getting personalized copies of movies. ??? I think? Same shit different day. Day after day after day after day. Whatever!! Someone has been into my stuff or anticipating?? what I pick up at the library. Or both. “Wag The Dog”, The Big Lebowski”, “Giant”, “Being John Malkovich” to name a few. “James Dean................James Dean................bought it sight unseen..................I know my life...would look alright if I could see it on the silver screen...........” James Dean The Eagles The state of Arizona has some significance, but I don't know what it is. It's heavily Protestant or Catholic or Democrat or Republican. I don't know. Maybe 'Hotel California' spilled over into Arizona. In the 1960's there was a Rock band called Paul Revere and the Raiders. Their best known song is “Indian Reservation”. It's about the forced re-settlement of the Cherokee indians during the 1830's. They may have been drawing a parallel between that event and the forced re-settlement taking place today. “Hotel California”. Mark Lindsey later wrote the song “Arizona”. It was also a hit. Lindsey was in Paul Revere and the Raiders. Also during the 1960's the man who owned McCulloch Chain Saw bought the London Bridge from England. They were in the process of replacing the bridge. He had the entire bridge disassembled and shipped to Arizona. He re-assembled the bridge over the Colorado river on the border between California and Arizona. He built Lake Havasu right next to it and made it a resort community. There is a very famous childrens song “London Bridge is falling down, falling down.......” I don't know if McCulloch was Protestant or Catholic or if he cared or didn't. I don't know. He might have been bragging or it was an Aleister Crowley. “California rest in peace..................simultaneous release...” Dani California Red Hot Chili Peppers

Sunday Sept 2 2018 – 8 PM – Went to lunch with mom. Worked at computer. Need to go to store.

Monday Sept 3 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Crawford Square very early. Had coffee at McDonalds. Went to Shaws. Posted something about my electric toilet idea. Am going to start to look into computer encryption and add my two cents. R.S.A. Is a company that deals in cryptology. It stands for the 3 people who started the company. Ronald L Rivest, Adi Shamir and Leonard L Adleman. They came up with what many consider the gold standard in encryption technology. They are mentioned in the documentary “Missing Links”. It's about the Sept 11 attacks. Most of the evidence presented was gathered by present and former members of the FBI, CIA, NSA and military intelligence that are still loyal to the United States. That's what it says at the very beginning of the movie. The algorithm used by RSA would take years for the most massive computer to decipher just one message.

Tuesday Sept 4 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. The water coming out of the faucet IS REALLY NASTY. I MEAN REALLY NASTY. (nuf ced) Found something on my hard drive about 'hearing voices'. It's a paper by John J McMurtrey M. S. and Edward A Moore M. D. copyright 2004 and 2006 titled “Technological Simulation Of Hallucination”. It documents a number of methods for driving someone crazy with voices that are actually broadcast in one way or another. Acoustic or electrical energy. It cites patents by a number of people and research by people as far back as the 18 th century. The tones of Tartini were discovered by a violinist and result from air non-linearity that causes sound to scatter itself. Modern techniques can combine two frequencies, acoustic or electrical, and then aim it at a person for the effect of voices in the head. The paper also goes into depth of RADAR techniques that can follow a person anywhere to insure delivery of the voices. Outside or inside. McMurtrey also has a paper titled “Thought Reading Capacity” hosted on www.slavery.org.uk. I could not find this website. It also cites the work of J. C. Lin and his book “Microwave Auditory Effect and Its Applications” a book I have seen cited many times. I tried to buy a copy but it was a couple hundred dollars. Looked up RSA in the Encyclopedia Britainnica and did find an article. Was mentioned in 'cryptography'.

Wednesday Sept 5 2018 – 9 PM – Went to Cambridge to distribute literature. Started at Alewife, then Davis, Porter and Kendall. Had lunch at Cambridgeside. Surfed web a little. Wanted information on Patrick Flanagan's 'Neurophone'. I got a schematic that uses a simple pulse width modulation IC (TL494) and a couple piezo transducers. I think it works on the same principle as Tartini. But I'm not sure. The 'Neurophone' has been manufactured since the 1950's. Was going to look for information on RSA but I forgot. It was getting late and I was tired. (WAH WAH WAH) Got home about 4 PM. Tried to sleep couldn't. I think because of the water and whatever 'chickenshit I got at the mall. (DD ya know) It never fails. I have been wondering if they had a meeting or something and everyone has been advised that when they see me 'chickenshit' is to be included.

Thursday Sept 6 2018 – 8 PM - Stayed home all day. Watched “A Farewell To Arms” with Gary Cooper and Helen Hayes. The book was written by Ernest Hemingway. It was one of his first successes. I think the title could have 2 meanings. World War I was billed by the media as the war to end all wars. Young men were urged to sign up to finally put an end to the scourge of war. The other could be the end of human love. I think one purpose of war is to get rid of the 'juded'. A 'juded' person is unable to really love. Sex and nausea make strange bed fellows. The story surrounds Frederic Henry an American who signs up for the Italian ambulance corps and Capt Rinaldi an Italian doctor and their fight over an English nurse named Barkley. At the beginning Henry complains about the nasty wine. (Cult of Dionysis??) Rinaldi is doing things to Henry behind his back because Barkley loves Henry. In the end only the girl dies.

Friday Sept 7 2018 – 9 PM – Went to Crawford Square. Surfed the net a little. Got some information on RSA encryption. Watched “The Matrix” starring Keanu Reeves. Reeves is  a character named Neo who gets talked into joining some weird virtual war. (sound familiar) I think Morphius represents someone under mind control, or being controlled by the mind controlled, who's job is to get other people involved. It's like a snowball going downhill. Like “Invasion Of The Body Snatchers”. It's either a killing machine or they want everyone under control. After Neo gets his training Morphius takes Neo to the oracle. The oracle turns out to be some grandma in a kind of run down apartment who bakes cookies. “Tie your mother down,...tie your mother down,.....or you ain't no friend of mine..” “Mother do you think they'll like this song..............mother will they put me in the firing line............Mother is it just a waste of time.......” “A dissident a dissident is here..............” Neo turns out to be THE ONE who breaks the Matrix and changes things. Oh lucky him. Morphius gets out by making a phone call. “Evil going on............” Cactus Evil So that brings me back to RSA. The trick to RSA is a public key. Any RSA encrypted message can be unlocked if you have both the private key and the public key. I don't totally understand it. But somehow the possibilities are so enormous it would take the biggest fastest computer years to decipher one message.

Saturday Sept 8 2018 - - Stayed home all day. Re-watched ROMAN Polanski's “Chinatown” starring Jack Nicholson. This is one of 3 movies about dam's that I know of. In America the police aren't suppose to get involved unless a crime has already been committed. If they were investigating another crime and discovered one in progress that's OK. White collar crime is very subtle and they get away with it a lot. It's not like robbing a liquor store. Near the beginning they tell a dumb joke. The punch line is basically that the woman isn't suppose to know how a china man makes love. In this case the manipulation is the love. ??? Nicholson is J. J. Geddes a private detective who specializes in extra marital affairs. Someone comes to him and pretends to be the wife of the head of the Los Angeles Water department. But she's not. She thinks her husband is having an affair. Someone wanted him to investigate because either the police can't or won't. As it turns out the police are on the take. Los Angeles is having a water crisis. Someone wants a dam built but the water will be diverted to an area where oranges are grown. After the dam is up the land will be worth millions. Someone is buying it for pennies. While investigating Geddes beats up an Okie who is about to lose his land. Okies moved to California during the 1930's when the land in Oklahoma became worthless. I could go into the Oklahoma City Bombing and a documentary “A Noble Lie” but I'm getting off base. (Aleister Crowley ???) The idea of stealing land is used in the movie “The Crucible”. “The Crucible” is about the Salem Witch Trials. One side plot in the movie has one of the main players using the crisis to steal land. He wanted the owner executed. I hope I'm not giving anyone any ideas. Another movie about dam's is “Mr Smith Goes To Washington” starring Jimmy Stewart. I think this was made in the 1930's. Stewart gets appointed to the US Senate when one of his states senators dies. When he gets there he files a bill to create a boys camp near a river that the rich people in the state want to dam. He gets accused of corruption and has to fillibuster the senate to clear his name. He has a secretary named Saunders who sits in the gallery a couple times. One scene she call's Stewart “Don Quixote” and one of the backers of the dam a “Puss N Boots”. When Stewart is first brought to his seat the page tells him Daniel Webster sat here. Daniel Webster was a famous Massachusetts senator. He was in love with capitalism. He was mentioned in one of the first things ever published by Mark Twain. “The Celebrated Jumping Frog Of Calaveras County” The third movie is “Deliverance” starring Burt Reynolds. Are all these dam's supposed to deliver us from something? “Oh you couldn't dam the river................and maybe I don't give a damn anyway.” Dam The River Alice In Chains

Sunday Sept 9 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Crawford Square. Needed to go to store. Watched “Godfather 2”. It's a movie. Art reflects life. In the end Michael has to get even with everyone. Even his brother. He who dies with all the toys wins??? But then there's no one to play with. Should of done more playing all along. This world is fucked. We're all thrown into it and forced to survive. Some are all in and gung ho on everything and some just play the middle of the road and do the least possible to survive and keep breathing. If there were enough people in that toilet on the Tiber about 300 years ago with a millionth of a brain and a billionth of an ounce of humanity and they decided to call it a church we wouldn't be here right now. I've been thinking about Putin's invasion of the Ukraine. Some of the Ukraine was part of the 'Pale” until 1917. The Pale was the area reserved for Jews who escaped Eastern Europe. It's like a ghetto. Ghetto's were part of almost all European cities until about 1850. The last one closed in 1880 (??) in Venice. They were authorized by Papal Bull about 1550. I wonder if it has reverted. I already think Israel is a ghetto-pale. I got this information from my encyclopedia.

Monday Sept 10 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Was supposed to meet with SSMH worker but only called. Been watching movies about Asians. I think artists use the Japanese, Chinese etc to represent people who want to be free. Or people under mind control. The movies I watched are “Chinatown” starring Jack Nicholson, “Blade Runner” starring Harrison Ford and “The Manchurian Candidate”.

Tuesday Sept 11 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center via South Braintree. Distributed literature along the way. Tried to get on the internet at Crane Library but it was down. Took out some movies. Ate lunch and went back to Crawford Square where I managed to get on internet. Went to store came home. Watched “Back To The Future” starring Michael J Fox. I have begun to wonder if the reason Russia invaded Ukraine was to restore the pale that was closed in 1917. The pale was a place where jews could live. It's like a ghetto was in Europe. I think it's possible Tibet is also a pale and Burma (Myanmar) is currently pushing 'juded' people into Bangladesh.

Wednesday Sept 12 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched movies. “Altered States” starring William Hurt is similar to “The Fly”. It's set mostly in Boston. A professor uses sensory deprivation and psychedelic drugs to achieve a different state of mind. He regresses into a monkey. It's a metaphor for whats happening to me. Social isolation can make a person psychotic. It happens quite frequently to elderly who live alone. I believe it's part of the strategy of the 'chickenshit army'. Many people will give in and do their bidding rather than be driven insane. I also watched “Beetlejuice” starring Alec Baldwin and Geena Davis. It's set in Connecticut. Two long time New Englanders are driven from their home when they die. They are replaced by some obnoxious New Yorkers. The old owners try to haunt the house to get rid of them.

Thursday Sept 13 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Did laundry, slept. Watched “Back To The Future II”. Could have skipped it.

Friday Sept 14 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center to return library videos. Went to Staples in Weymouth for paper. Ate lunch in Quincy. Surfed net. Learning about cryptology. This is what I've learned so far. Cryptology is the science of secret communication. It encompasses at least 2 sub categories: cryptography and cryptoanalysis.  Cryptography is concerned with the actual communication and cryptoanalysis is intercepting and decoding the communication.  In cryptography the initial communication is called plaintext. When it's scrambled it's called a cipher. Cryptography goes back to at least Julius Caesar. Up until the days of computer technology it was necessary for both parties to know how to decode. Computers can do that automatically with software. The key used to code and decode can be very complex and involve a lot of math. It's not practical for someone to do it manually. Computers can also create 2 different codes, one to create the cipher and one to decipher. This is called asymmetrical cryptography. A public key creates the cipher and a private key deciphers it. There are obvious problems with this. If you can't guarantee the integrity of the software creating the cipher the whole process is useless. There has to be a way to separate the software from the antenna so nothing coming in over the antenna can alter the operating system. I looked at some computer hardware security books but they were too expensive.

Saturday Sept 15 2018 – 8 PM – Went out early. Went for a walk in the Blue Hills. Then went to Wal-Mart in Avon. Got back around 4 PM. I ordered a small de-humidifier through Amazon last week and it has arrived when I returned. I have had it on for about 4 hrs and haven't produced much water. It was only $40. I'm pretty sure it doesn't operate by refrigerant and a compressor. It's too small. I have been wondering if there is some electronic way to remove heat. A de-humidifier is basically a refrigerator that works just above freezing. Any moisture that accumulates on the evaporator condenses, then drips into a pan. Many electronic components need to be cooled. Which is the removal of heat. A passive method is a simple heat sink. Many old style voltage regulators have a heat sink. The basic idea is to provide a lot of surface area and draw the heat to it. Heat sinks are usually made of aluminum. If you could come up with an aluminum container that could hold about a half a square foot of ice, then seal it so it is not exposed to the air, attach a large heat sink to the bottom and draw air over the heat sink you could get water to condense. House the assembly in a plastic container and hang it over a drip pan and draw air through it with a fan. Maybe producing water. ???

Sunday Sept 16 2018 – ND – Went to lunch with mom. South Shore Plaza. Slept. I think someone entered my room while I was gone and broke my cd player. Pig vomit chickenshit act #1,367,567.

Monday Sept 17 2018 – 7 PM – Went to Crawford Square early but library was closed for some maintenance issue. Hung around for a while, went to Shaws. Got back about noon. Trying to find information on Russian Pale Of Settlement. Do you remember a few years ago the entire Polish government was killed in a plane crash as they were flying to Russia? (Aleister Crowley?) The pale was the result of 3 partitions of Poland in the 18 th century. Both Eastern Europe, mostly Russia, and Western Europe had been fighting over Poland for years. When I looked up feudalism in my encyclopedia the information about Poland presented a very liberal democratic society that had attracted jews for years. They had built a tolerant prosperous country. The European powers destroyed it. Many Polish were forced into the pale and eventually killed. ??? Is history repeating itself? Accidentally on purpose?

Tuesday Sept 18 2018 – 9 PM – Stayed home all day. Slept, watched movies. Need to go to store.

Wednesday Sept 19 2018 – ND – Went to Crawford Square. Got some movies at library. Watched “Seven Days In May” starring Kirk Douglas and Burt Lancaster. This movie was made by the same people who made “The Manchurian Candidate”. John F Kennedy wanted this movie made. It's about a right wing general who attempts a coup in the United States because he can't stand the left wing president currently in office. Douglas defends the president while at the same time working for the general. He discovers a secret military base called ECOMCON somewhere in Texas. ECOMCON stands for Emergency Communications Control. In the end the general resigns. ECOMCON – electronic con job??? In the Austin Powers movies his base is VIRTUCON. Virtual Con Job ??? The base is in Nevada?? Area 51?? I also watched “A Long Days Journey Into Night” starring Katherine Hepburn. Three hours!! Hepburn and her husband are successful Irish Catholics getting up in years. She is addicted to morphine and he's an alcoholic. Both sons are kinda losers. One has consumption which I think is TB. At the time it's fatal. (the movie is set about the year 1910.  I think) The whole thing is a sort of soap opera.

Thursday Sept 20 2018 – 10 PM – Went to South Shore Plaza. Need a new pair of shoes. Watched “Crimes and Misdemeanors” starring Woody Allen. Two completely separate stories. At the end the two main characters from each situation have a brief conversation about what happened. I didn't really get it.

Friday Sept 21 2018 – ND – Went to downtown Boston to look for shoes. Didn't find something. Watched 2 Marilyn Monroe movies. “Some Like It Hot” and “The Seven Year Itch”. I had seen them before.

Saturday Sept 22 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Did laundry, slept.

Sunday Sept 23 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Tried to fast but gave up about 5 PM. Ordered Chinese. Came without chickenshit. Will wonders never cease. Thinking about the movie “Seven Days In May”. Kennedy wanted the movie made. Part of the evidence used to investigate whether a coup was about to happen was the fact a large amount of money was missing from the defense department. It was used to build the ECOMCON base. Toward the end of the Sept 11 documentary “Loose Change” is a news conference with Donald Rumsfeld, who was Secretary of Defense at the time of Sept 11, and he admits that more than a trillion dollars is missing. This was either the day before Sept 11 or the same day. I don't know if I got a personalized copy because I vaguely remember the ECOMCON base was fictional and Kirk Douglas couldn't find it. I had a copy of this movie but I think someone took it while I lived at Patten Ave in Braintree. They did find the base this time. I don't know. I am still looking for information on the Russian Pale Of Settlement and R.S.A. Cryptology.

Monday Sept 24 2018 – Went to Crawford Square. Needed to go to store. I used to have 2 domains. Philipnute.com and zsezse.com along with the .net for each. I had them with melbourneit.com.au in Australia. I originally bought them when yahoo.com had a web hosting service. This may be as far back as 2002 or 03. I had the account set up for automatic renewal but I think someone got into the account and changed it. I think, I'm not sure, I've lost them. When I got back I met with my SSMH worker.

Tuesday Sept 25 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Watched movies. “Eyes Wide Shut” starring Tom Cruise. The movie is set in New York City. At the beginning they mention vacationing on Cape Cod. I think the crazy party is somewhere in Massachusetts. The second time Cruise goes to the house they show road signs for Interstate 495. I know 495 goes around Boston. Unless there's more that one. I think it's about rich people under mind control. The more money you have the crazier the party. “Arthur” starring Dudley Moore. At the very beginning someone asks Arthur's chauffeur “Is he crazy?”. He hesitates, then hesitates some more and says “....................yeah...”. The Mad Hatter in Alice in Wonderland is the same way. They used mercury in the hat making process in the 19th century and a lot of people ended up like that. (plumbism?) “There are many here among us,......who feel that life is but a joke....” All Along The Watchtower Jimi Hendrix “All's I got is this red guitar,,..three chords and the truth......All's I got is this red guitar..............the rest is up to you...” There's a lot of funny stuff between Moore and John Geilgood. Moore says “Do you remember when I was a kid and we played hise and seek?” Geilgood says “Oh yes” Moore says “You never found me” Geilgood says “I never looked”. “Outbreak” starring Dustin Hoffman. It's about a very deadly virus that gets loose in a small town. The government wants to blow the town up just to save the virus as a weapon. There are people who think the AIDS virus was manufactured and spread on purpose. There are videos on youtube. The official story is that it started when a monkey bit someone in Africa. ???? I think this story could also be about what the government does to contain a situation like what's happening to me right now in Randolph. I think there was a TV show about a small town somewhere that was covered by an invisible dome and no one could get out. I don't know.

Wednesday Sept 26 2018 – ND – Went to Crawford Square. Returned videos to Turner Free Library. Went to Shaws. Got some really nasty Pepsi. Had to throw it away. Almost collapsed on the way home. Watched “Cool Hand Luke” starring Paul Newman. When I lived at Cross St Randolph one of my room mates called me Luke. She seemed to know too much. (Luke Skywalker ??) Newman is a war hero fighting the powers that be. Strother Martin is a corrections official trying to break him. “What we've got here is failure to communicate.....” That line is used in the song “Civil War” by Guns N Roses. Watched “Stigmata” with Patricia Arquette. Stigmata is when the wounds of Jesus appear on someone. In this case Arquette is an atheist which is unusual. It has something to do with The Gospel Of Jesus. This gospel was supposedly written by Jesus at the last supper. It was discovered in 1947 as part of the Dead Sea Scrolls. If it got out it would destroy the church. Later in the movie it's called The Gospel Of St Thomas. ??? Probably says something like “GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!!.............They're trying to kill me!!!!!!!!!!!!These people are all crazy!!!!!!!!!!....S.O.S. Save Our Savior....!!!!”

Thursday Sept 27 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched movies. “The Rocky Horror Picture Show” and “Capricorn One”. “Capricorn One” stars O.J Simpson. He's part of a flight crew headed to Mars. It's the early 1970's so it's the first trip to Mars. At launch the 3 astronauts are removed from the capsule and taken to a remote base where they are informed the mission is impossible and they must fake it on a sound stage. The rest of the movie is forgettable. There are many people who believe the moon missions were faked. They point to films by Stanley Kubrick. He had a very close relationship with NASA and Disney. Need to go to store. MMM MMMM Pepsi.

Friday Sept 28 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center. Thomas Crane Library. Got the first season of “Kung Fu”. Rained most of the day. Everybody's talking about the weather but nobodies doing anything. What?

Saturday Sept 29 2018 – ND – Went to Target in Stoughton. Got a chickenshitted coffee from Starbucks.

Sunday Sept 30 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched half of “Dr Zhivago”. Why are Russian novels so long? Watched parts of “Kung Fu”. Already lost interest.

Monday Oct 1 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center to return movies. Came right back. Went to Turner Library and surfed net a little. Went to Shaws came home. Was supposed to meet with SSMH worker but just called. Working on electronics again. Trying to get an oscillator to work.

Tuesday Oct 2 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked at electronics. Watched “World According To Garp” starring Robin Williams. Didn't understand it at all. I wonder if I got a personalized copy. Rained most of the day. Hope it's nice tomorrow.

Wednesday Oct 3 2018 – ND – Went to Central Square Cambridge to distribute literature. Ate at Galleria. Got home late. 6 PM. Having trouble with my oscilloscope. I think it's the little children slugs. For anyone who wants to try to fight back by messing with electronics a message. You must work within a Faraday Cage or this might happen to you. Among other things.

Thursday Oct 4 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched videos all day. 'The French Connection” starring Gene Hackman. It's about 2 narcotics agents in New York City. All the junkies are in need of a fix and they're talking about a big shipment coming in. Some French dock workers are trying to smuggle heroin into America by hiding it in the rocker panels of a Lincoln Town Car owned by a well known French TV celebrity. Hackman and his partner get a lead but most of the dealers get away. There are 2 sets of rules in this country. One for the haves and the other for the have-nots. The haves can get away with pretty much anything. Rock stars (rocker panels?) usually travel on chartered flights along with other celebrities. Many times they go unchecked by customs. In the 1980's people came to believe they were smuggling drugs in the body bags of dead soldiers. If mind control has improved all anyone has to do is erase the soldiers after they get here. No one is going to check an Army base and everyone who comes and goes. After we invaded Afghanistan in 2002 their opium production skyrocketed. Our troops are told to guard the fields. ??? Afghanistan now produces 80% or global heroin. Before it was only a fraction. G.O.D. Gold Oil Drugs Then I watched “Oiligarchy” by The Corbett Report. The Corbett Report is an alternative media mostly on youtube. This documentary was on the history of the oil industry. The oil industry began in 1859 with the first well in Western Pennsylvania. By the turn of the century the Rockefellers owned all of it. In the early days of the automobile industry alcohol burning engines were popular. Henry Ford predicted alcohol would dominate oil by the 1920's. The Rockefellers and others pushed for Prohibition and this all but killed the alcohol car. In the 1950's GM and the oil industry dismantled inner city electric trolley cars and replaced them with buses running on diesel. They paid a $5000 fine. But it was too late. Then they partnered with the government to build the Interstate Highway system. In the early part of the 20th century Rockefeller started Chicago University to reshape American education to benefit oil. The 'Dumbing Down Of America” was the goal and it was achieved. Later they took over the medical schools to promote pharmaceuticals. This was accomplished literally overnight. They took the banking industry when Nixon went off the gold standard by abandoning Bretton Woods. This created the petro-dollar. Oh Well whats a poor boy to do but sing for a Rock N Roll band. Next I watched a BBC series on “Operation Gladio”. Gladio was the CIA program in Europe after WWII that was supposed to root out communists. Most of the governments in Europe were unaware of it's existence. Too late to do anything now. Then I watched “Monarch The New Phoenix Program” by Marshall Gregory Thomas. This isn't the greatest documentary but I like it. It documents the CIA's MK Ultra program that was trying to come up with ways to control the human mind. They go into the PRU's (Provincial Reconnaissance Units) in Vietnam. They killed about 40,000 people covertly. Thomas says they are doing this today in America. This is whats happening to me.

Friday Oct 5 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center. Got some videos. “Citizen Four”, “Kurt Cobain: Montage Of Heck”, “Citizen Koch”, “The Assange Agenda”, “The Thin Blue Line” and “The Witches Of Eastwick”. “The Witches Of Eastwick” was filmed in Massachusetts in the 1980's. Parts of it were filmed right down the street from where I was working at the time. None of it was used in the movie. I was in the Old Hingham Shipyard on Rt 3A. It's about 3 women who want a new man in their life. Jack Nicholson shows up but he's the devil. I guess. “Citizen Four” is about Edward Snowden. I think special Ed is a snow job. (there's a character named Snowden in “Catch-22” ???) The surveillance he talks about is real but exactly who's responsible.........I don't know. He doesn't go into synthetic telepathy. In fact in the ten or so years I've been suffering from it nobody has. He doesn't go into neural implants. Everybody goes around these things. “Kurt Cobain” was OK. Too bad he's dead. In another world in another life that's what I would have done for a living. There are people who think Julian Assange is a CIA operative. Wikileaks is a CIA operation intercepting CIA leaks. ???? “The Thin Blue Line” is about the murder of a Dallas police officer in 1976. The person who was convicted is probably innocent but he is still in jail. 'Citizen Koch” is about the Koch brothers and their support for the Tea Party movement. Proof positive idle hands are the devils workshop. Rich people that is.

Saturday Oct 6 2018 – 8PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Not really getting anywhere. What I want to do is mimic the electrical signals recorded by an EEG. Split it into 8 or 9 different signals and put them all on a ribbon cable that goes around my neck. This might confuse the computer. It's jamming. If they are all very close to the actual signals the computer might have difficulty telling them apart. I think there are several possible approaches to this. Design a voltage controlled oscillator that operates between 8 HZ and about 45 HZ. Control it with an Arduino that is monitoring my heart rate. The gain could be altered some way to make the signal transient. Maybe some DC could be added to further confuse. Another way is to mix two oscillators operating at 8 HZ and 45 HZ then filter the signal with a bandpass that could be controlled by the Arduino. Gain and DC could be used to further confuse. The third way is to use avalanche noise filtered for 8 HZ to 45 HZ by a bandpass filter. This would probably be transient enough not to need gain and DC manipulation. Good Luck and God Speed cause I'm not getting anywhere.

Sunday Oct 7 2018 - 7PM - Went to lunch with mom. South Shore Plaza. Watched a couple documentaries. Including “Invisible Empire” by Jason Bermas. I have been suffering from synthetic telepathy for at least 10 years. Synthetic telepathy is the ability to sense the electric impulses of the human brain electronically and reproduce them on a computer as understandable language. No main stream media or alternative media has spent any time on this or neural implants. Some alternative media spend time on mind control but never attribute it to neural implants. To prove controlling someone with an implant is possible I point to Jose Manual DelGado who stopped a bull from charging at him with a push button in 1965. You can find video on this on youtube. Video is also available from NTT Communications Science Laboratories of a girl being moved around with a joystick.

Monday Oct 8 2018 – ND – Went to Crawford Square early. I was hungry. Went to Dunkin Donuts. Then I went shopping and to McDonalds for another coffee. Got back about noon. Met with SSMH worker about 5:30. Watched “Chariots Of The Gods” and “The Franklin Conspiracy”. “The Franklin Conspiracy” is a one hour Discovery Channel documentary on the Franklin child abuse case in Nebraska. It never aired because some very powerful people in Washington were involved and they put pressure on Discovery to shelve it. It can be downloaded from archive.org by searching for The Franklin Conspiracy. It was difficult to follow but I think the whole thing was an Aleister Crowley. “Chariots Of The Gods” is an award winning film released in the early 1970's. It's about the possibility that aliens from outer space have visited this planet in the past. I think the UFO, space alien thing is a set up for a never ending war with aliens. War is part of the system. It's also a cover story for the neural implant problem. In the movie “Close Encounters Of the Third Kind” people who were abducted by aliens are returned when they land on Devils Tower in Wyoming. I think this is like saying if the neural implant snowball goes the other way all the people are returned.

Tuesday Oct 9 2018 -  - Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics and watched movies. “The Mephisto Waltz” starring Alan Alda and Jacquelyn Bisset. I went to High school from 1972 to 1975. We watched this movie twice a year each year. Alda and Bisset are married. Alda meets a famous concert pianist who is dying. His wife was murdered by a dog many years before. I did not know you could be murdered by a dog. As it turns out he and his daughter are involved with devil worship. They steal the bodies of others to reincarnate themselves and continue living. (Invasion Of The Body Snatchers??? snowball going down hill???) They want Alda for the pianist. To keep her husband she steals the body of his daughter Roxanne. I bought this movie 8 or 9 years ago from Amazon. It came with another movie “The House On Skull Mountain”. The ad didn't mention this. It's a B-movie but a pretty good one. The “Mephisto Waltz” has rich white people involved with devil worship and “Skull Mountain” has rich black people who are apparently catholic and involved with Voodoo. The church puts up with it. Isn't that heresy?

Wednesday Oct 10 2018 – ND – Went to Crane Library in Quincy Center to return videos. Was not planning to get more but I did. Got home late. Got a nasty sub at Angelina's in Quincy. Got a really crappy nights sleep because of it.

Thursday Oct 11 2018 – 9 PM – Stayed home all day and worked on electronics. Watched videos. “The Blue Max” starring George Peppard. “Cocoon” by Ron Howard. “Cold Turkey” starring Dick Van Dyke and “Chariots Of Fire” with John Geilgood. I did spend some time on electronics. 'Chariots Of Fire” was released sometime during the 1980's. It's about a couple British track and field athletes who competed in the 1924 Olympics. One is Jewish the other Christian. The Jewish guy has an ax to grind. He's always angry. The Christian is devout and doesn't run on Sunday. They are always competing against each other. “Cocoon” is about space aliens. “Cold Turkey” is about what might happen if society collapses. (well sort of) Everyone who smokes would go cold turkey. “The Blue Max” is about a hot shot WWI flying ace who doesn't really care about anyone else.

Friday Oct 12 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Crane Library in Quincy Center to return videos. Came right back. Got back to Crawford Square about 11 AM. Got some really loaded 3 Musketeers Halloween candy at CVS in Crawford Square. Trick or Treat!!! “I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me......” Marilyn Manson The kiddies are gonna love it.

Saturday Oct 13 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched “Endgame” a documentary by Alex Jones. At the end he goes over eugenics. Eugenics was a policy of sterilizing poor people at the beginning of the 20 th century. They trace it's roots to Thomas Malthus who predicted that mans population would always exceed their ability to produce food. He didn't foresee the mechanization of agriculture. A Malthusian theory is one where a disaster kills millions of people. They insist Darwin based his theories on Malthus. If there were a great disaster only the fittest would survive. Eugenics became very popular in the United States just before WWI.  Eugenics laws were passed in many states giving authorities the power to sterilize people. Hitler used eugenics in his ideology. Hitlers crimes, among other things, drove eugenics underground. Thomas Huxley was referred to as Darwin's Bulldog. He sold the idea to people and made Darwin famous. Aldous Huxley, a direct relative, wrote the book “Brave New World”. It's a futuristic novel that predicted a technological dictatorship. “Brave New World” came out just before George Orwell's “1984”. In 1964 Huxley gave a speech at Berkley California saying he believed his vision was closer to the future than Orwell's. He said that the dictators would rely on pharmaceuticals to subdue and eliminate the lower classes. No wonder congress loves the pharmaceutical industry. “Got to keep the loonies on the path.....................” This speech can be found online. Huxley also appeared on Mike Wallace's TV show in 1958. It's a half hour. It can be found on youtube. Huxley and Wallace blame the Catholic church for driving the world toward communism. The world ended up being both Orwell's “1984” and Huxley's “Brave New World”. Orwell exposed the surveillance and Huxley exposed the subtler aspects of tyranny.

Sunday Oct 14 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. I'm back to building the Arduino Brain Simulator. Different metals have different reflective properties. Chaff for example is sized to reflect a certain frequency. After chaff is deployed it twists and turns. This helps to reflect the EMI. I want to carry the simulator around so I need some defense against microwaves. I am going to cut up as many metals as I can find into small pieces and stick them onto a mat of electrical tape. I will crumple up the metal to give it many angles. This simulates it floating in the air. I will place the mat inside my enclosure on the top and bottom. To protect the necklace I am going to wrap different metals around the ribbon cable without actually cutting off the EMI I want to transmit. This is another type of EMI absorbent.

Monday Oct 15 2018 – ND – Went out early. Wal-Mart in Avon. Have to be back every Monday because my SSMH worker either calls or drops by. This time I complained about someone sleeping on the couch downstairs. I don't know who it is. He drives a black Ford Crown Vic. ?? Recently watched “Death On The Nile” by Agatha Christie. There is one 5 second piece of dialogue I thought was interesting. Someone starts to say something like “.....it was put up by the British in 1788.....”. And then stops. They were talking about The Temple Of Karnak. It made me wonder if it's an Aleister Crowley. Aleisters Crowleys father wasn't even a glimmer in his grandfathers eye. (Murphy's Laws weren't invented by Murphy but by someone else with the same name) But I digress. The Temple Of Karnak is supposedly the oldest existing ancient structure. It was built by Akenhaten in about 1500 BC. Akenhaten's original name was Amenhotep IV (or V) . He invented a couple new deities one of which was Aken and named himself after the God. After Akenhaten died the Egyptians abandoned the new religion and most of the Temple. Believe it or not Tutankamen was Akenhatens son. King Tut's tomb is the only tomb found intact. What a coincidence!!! What was Aleister trying to say? Did he foresee Scientology? “............They reckon in centuries and plan for eternity.  ….” I also watched a documentary on the Spanish Civil War of the 1930's. I might have got this from the Crane Library in Quincy. They interviewed some of the survivors of the International Brigades. They attribute Franco's victory to air support provided by the Germans and Italians. The Republic had no air force at all. After it ended in 1939 ?? Franco executed over 200,000 before WWII ended. Many others were forced to build a church where Franco was eventually buried. I think ??? the church is owned by the Catholic church. They say the one thing the Nationalists had in common was religion. Catholicism. I think the whole thing was a set up. They had the Republic's leaders in the back pocket before it even started. The Spanish Civil War and Jasenovac are 2 events that prove the Vatican's guilt.

Tuesday Oct 17 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Re-watched “Barbarians At The Gate” starring James Garner. For some reason I think this movie touched a nerve with the psychos that be. It's about the takeover of RJR Nabisco in the 1980's. It was the 19 th largest company in the US at that time. Garner plays Ross Johnson the CEO. He wants to buy the company along with the other executives. Henry Kravis (or Kravitz) also wants to buy it. Kravis invented the leveraged buy out. (LBO) A LBO uses junk bonds to borrow money then buys the company. I don't totally understand it. A lot of people went to jail for selling junk bonds, Michael Milken for one. I think it was basically stealing. By the end of the 1980's most American were heavily in debt because of LBO's. Someone invented a way to fend off LBO's and it had a name but I can't remember it. It was some type of hidden debt and when the person finally took over the company they had additional debt and it drove them into bankruptcy. At the end Garner tells Kravis that Robinson (played by Fred Thompson) just “canceled your American Express card”. Fred Thompson later ran for the Senate from Tennessee or president. ???? “Let's see action,........let's see people.......let's see freedom..... let's see who cares.”

Wednesday Oct 17 2018 – ND – Went to Crawford Square to go to store. Got back about 1 PM. Got a robo call from the IRS. 1-432-355-3033 Said a civil lawsuit had been filed against me. ???? Can't get blood from a stone. Isn't there a Beatles song “Taxman”? A couple days ago I watched “Freedom To Fascism” by Aaron Russo. He spends a lot of time complaining about the IRS. “The power to tax is the power to destroy” Aaron Russo made the movie “Trading Places” with Eddie Murphy. Among others. At the end he talks to some named Katherine Albrecht who wrote a book “Spychips”. He calls her an expert on RFID and other electronic surveillance. FYI

Thursday Oct 18 2018 – 9 PM – Stayed home all day. Got another call from the IRS (1-432-355-3033 Texas???) they said an arrest warrant has been issued for me. My radio is reporting that some journalist from The Washington ComPost named Jamal Kashogi was abducted, murdered and dismembered in the Saudi Embassy in Istanbul. Everyone is appalled. Sec State Pompeo went to Saudi Arabia to talk about it. (is this a sign from god??) Watched “Citizen Kane” and “The Battle For Citizen Kane”. The latter is a PBS documentary with David McCulloch. It's basically a biography of both William Randolph Hearst and Orson Wells. It was pretty good.

Friday Oct 19 2018 – ND – Went to Turner Free Library around noon, then on to Wal-Mart Avon. Watched “Cabaret” starring Liza Minnelli. It's set in Germany between the two wars in a risque night club. Every so often they show Nazi's beating someone up. At the end they pan the audience of the night club as Minnelli sings “Come To The Cabaret”. There are Nazi's in the audience. The song reminds me of another song by The Who, “Eminence Front”. It's a ruse. Get the 'target' in a compromising situation just to kill them. The movie alludes to the fact the Nazi's were being tolerated by some just to get rid of the communists. Another scene reminded of something I read about Frederich Neitzsche. He had an affair with both a man and a woman at the same time. Neitzsche had something to do with the Nazi'z but I don't know what. “That bowling ball...........it's my wife............” No Anchovies Please – J Geils #menever Shindeleria Praemataurus

Saturday Oct 20 2018 – 6 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics and watched movies. “Rear Window” by Alfred Hitchcock. I think he was trying to say something about a society with too much surveillance. At least one person knows too much about everyone else. “The Cabinet Of Dr Caligari” was a really weird movie. I think someone planted this in the library for me. “Paranoia paranoia everybody's out to get me.........”

Sunday Oct 21 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Re-watched the Alternative Views interview of George Seldes. Seldes was a muckracker. He focused on the press. He wrote over 20 books. He started out as a foreign correspondent for The Chicago Tribune during WWI. He stayed until the end of WWII. (I think) He confirms the reports that Franco executed thousands after the Spanish Civil War and he was supported by the Catholic Church. At the end they were supposed to talk about concentration camps in the US but didn't. ??? Alternative Views was a public access program produced in Austin Texas. I'm not sure if they're still on the air. You can download hundreds of shows at archive.org. They talk to CIA whistle blowers, Emile de Antonio and others.

Monday Oct 22 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Crane Library in Quincy Center early. Also  Turner Free Library. Re-watched “What I've Learned About US Foreign Policy: The War Against The Third World”. It's a collection of documentary's on US atrocities in the third world. A couple were narrated by Elizabeth Montgomery who played Samantha in the TV series “Bewitched”. They also interviewed John Stockwell and Philip Agee, two CIA agents who quit and wrote books. Ramsey Clark, a former Attorney General was also interviewed. A couple segments were “The Panama Deception”, “The School Of The Americas” and “Genocide By Sanction”.

Tuesday Oct 23 2018 – ND – Went to Brockton Public Library. Took out a couple videos. “Chicago”, “Patton” and “The Scarlet And The Black”. Pouring buckets by the time I got back. Watched “J Edgar” starring Leo Decaparrio. At the end J Edgar tries on one of his mother's dress's. He lived with Clyde Tolson his entire life.

Wednesday Oct 24 2018 – ND – Went back to Brockton to return videos. Got back about 1 PM. Watched “Chicago” starring Rene Zelwiger and Catherine Zeta Jones. An 'amercanized' Caberet. Instead of Sally Bowles as Alice in Wonderland it's Roxie Hart (“I got a Rock N Roll heart....” – Eric Clapton) “No Anchovies please..........that bowling ball........... it's my wife......” J Geils

Thursday Oct 25 2018 – ND – Stayed home most of the day. Went to lunch at Boston Pizza. Watched “Red Dawn”. Wasn't much. I think the next world war will be caused by the same people who caused the first two. Clericalism – a policy of increasing or maintaining the power of a religious hierarchy. Who knows what it will be fought over. The first casualty in war is the truth. Or maybe the cause of war is the truth, I don't know. The truth being the church causes it when it's power is threatened.

Friday Oct 26 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Brockton about noon. Just to get out of the house. Watched “Looker” just before I left. Last night watched “Children Of The Corn”. It's based on a Steven King short story. 'He Who Walks Among The Rows' is never seen but is the cause of everything. HMMM. I wonder who that could be. I don't always like Steven King. I don't get it. This one was easy. I might get a couple more. 'Carrie' and 'Cujo'.

Saturday Oct 27 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Watched a couple John Carpenter movies. “They Live” and “Village Of The Damned”. “They Live” is very revealing. The main character puts on glasses that expose the robot elite. He can see the truth in all the advertising signs. He tries to fight but loses. “Village Of The Damned” is a re-make of a 1960's movie (I think ?) Everyone in a small town passes out for a couple days. After they wake up all the women are pregnant. They give birth to children that all look alike and are capable of reading peoples thoughts. They want to take over the town and the entire world.

Sunday Oct 28 2018 – ND – Went to lunch with mom. Kentucky Fried Chicken in Weymouth. The table was at a slant?? Food was chickenshitted. There is an old Friendlys Restaurant down the street that has been converted into a Mexican restaurant. The people serving us at KFC were clearly Hispanic. Was I supposed to 'go off'? Why do they get in my face sometimes and sometimes leave clues that I'm winning? “Contradiction Is Balance” ??? But I don't know what that means. I took the bus from Weymouth to Quincy Center to go to the library. Tried to download a documentary from archive.org that criticized Steven Speilberg's movie about the holocaust but the connection was too slow. It said Speilberg won an Oscar for the movie. They seemed to think it was all a lie. I forget the title of the documentary but I think I can find it again. I searched for “Academy Award Winning Documentary”. Watched “Westworld” when I came back. Another movie about robots gone crazy.

Monday Oct 29 2018 – 9 PM – Went to Crawford Square. McDonalds. To get on internet. Managed to download the documentary criticizing Steven Spielberg. It's title is “The Last Days Of The Big Lie”. “The Last Days” is a documentary by Spielberg that won an Oscar. It's about holocaust survivors. The one I downloaded debunks most of what Spielberg said. When I got back my SSMH worker arrived to have a meeting. I complained again about the person sleeping downstairs but he didn't care. He wants a meeting every Monday at 1 PM.

Tuesday Oct 30 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Worked on websites. Prepared to go to Boston tomorrow.

Wednesday Oct 31 2018 – 9 PM- Didn't go to Boston. Slept late Went to Stop N Shop in Brockton about noon. Watched videos. “The Century Of The Self” parts 1 and 2.

Thursday Nov 1 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Worked on websites. Slept.

Friday Nov 2 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Turner Library about 9 AM. On to South Shore Plaza. Had lunch. Went to Shaws on way home.

Saturday Nov 3 2018 – 9 PM – Stayed home all day. Slept watched movies. Re-watched “A Few Good Men” starring Tom Cruise and Jack Nicholson. I think this came out in the 1980's. It was acclaimed as a great movie. I don't know if it's fact or fiction. It's about a relatively minor incident between Marines at Guantanamo Bay Cuba. I can't figure out what makes it so great. At the end Nicholson makes a speech about 'guarding walls' and says “You can't handle the truth”. He was about to be promoted to some position in the National Security field. ??? I don't know. One of the other officers involved commits suicide. Guantanamo Bay (Gitmo) has been in the news a lot since Sept 11 2001. Obama said he would close it if he were elected in 2008 but didn't. I sometimes wonder if Cuba is a pale for the United States. Korea and Tibet are pale's for China. Israel for Europe. Whatever.

Sunday Nov 4 2018 – 8 PM – Went to Crawford Square early. Got jacked on coffee. McDonalds and Dunkin Donuts. Wanted to have lunch at Papa Ginos but sign said it was closed permanently. When I got back the radio confirmed about 50 stores closed. Needed to go to store. I figure what I bought is 50/50. Half is crap and half is not. Watched “A Few Good Men” one more time. I'm trying to understand why this was such a good movie. Toward the end when Jessup (Nicholson) is on the stand I started thinking Black Sabbath's song “War Pigs”. Jessup was about to be appointed Director of Operations for the National Security Council. An obviously very high position in the government. The man who tells this to Cruise then commits suicide. He was Jessups second in command at Gitmo. I go off on the Catholic church (the Spanish Civil War, Jasenovac) a lot but I also believe many non Catholics are just as guilty. They're all the same thing. The higher up you go on the pyramid the more they turn into the same thing. Freemasons, Skull and Bones among others. I have tried to find evidence to prove it but it's pretty thin. But here I go. Eisenhower. What is June 6 1944 6 AM? 666 the sign of the devil. (pretty thin huh) The very last thing Eisenhower did in his public life was give a farewell speech on Jan 22 1961. It's approximately 16 minutes. If you know what to look for you would realize he spit it all out. At the beginning he says “We face a hostile ideology....”.....”a prolonged and complex struggle with liberty the stake...” When he was finished the TV commentator called it communism but the rest of the speech goes into a couple things he thinks is wrong with the United States. They are: the military industrial complex and too much government funded research. He then warns that “..we must avoid becoming a world of dreadful fear and hate.....” The Manhattan Project produced the first atomic weapon. It was begun in the early part of the Second World War. The uranium for the project was mined in the Belgian Congo at a time when it was occupied by the Nazi's. ???? Someone named Capt (or Major) Jordan was in charge of shipping and receiving items from the US during the war. He kept a diary which was later published as “Major Jordans Diary” where he detailed much of the shenanigans. He toured the United States for years after the war giving speech's.  I'm not sure if he knew anything about the uranium. Either him or someone else in charge of moving stuff around also spoke up about the fact that excess military equipment was already being shipped to Korea before the war ended, implying the Korean War was already planned. The bombing of Dresden took place in Feb 1945 as the Germans were retreating. Dresden had no military significance. There were no factories. Many POW's and refugees were moved into Dresden just before. This is documented in the movie “Slaughterhouse Five” by Kurt Vonnegut. He briefly mentions someone named David Irving who has made a career out of writing books about the bombing. Dresden is at least 600 miles from London. No one disputes the fact it was done by B-17's based in England. (which may be a problem in itself) To get to Dresden and back would be at least 1200 miles at a time when Trans Atlantic flight was not possible. My point is the B-17 might not have had the range to get to Dresden and back. (but I'm not sure) If it didn't. Who destroyed Dresden and why? Why have the Allies always accepted responsibility? Accepted as one of the greatest military blunders in history Hitler gave up the Battle Of Britain to invade Russia. Was it a blunder or were they all the same thing? War Pigs. Hitler, Roosevelt, Stalin and Churchill didn't do lunch every Tuesday but were they all the same thing? What is going on at Gitmo? Is it a smoking gun? Does Col Jessup get a high ranking job because he is willing to tow the line? Cream does not rise to the top in Western Civilization, it's more like turds float. Antony Sutton wrote books for the last 30 years of his life that tried to expose much of the problem. They can be downloaded for free. “Wall St And The Rise Of Hitler” Wall St And The Bolshevik Revolution” 'Wall St And FDR” (???) Live interviews can be seen on youtube. “Free Willy” was a big picture about a killer whale.

Monday Nov 5 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day to wait for SSMH worker and a house meeting. Watched “Mrs Brown” starring Judi Dench. It's about the life of Queen Victoria after her husband died in 1861. She was befriended by a gruff Scot who helped her out of her depression. The British media started calling her Mrs Brown. Either broke a tooth or lost a very big filling, Going to make an appointment tomorrow at Aspen Dental at corner of Rt 128 and Rt 28 in Randolph.

Tuesday Nov 6 2018 – ND – Went to dentist very early but didn't get anything done. Went to Crawford Square.

Wednesday Nov 7 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched “Advise And Consent” by Otto Preminger. Called “one of the best political dramas ever made” it had a lot of famous actors. Henry Fonda was Leffingwell. It's about a presidents nomination for Secretary Of State and the process of confirmation. A young ideological senator from Utah opposes the nomination. He discovers information that the nominee was once in a communist organization. Someone begins to blackmail the senator to keep him quiet. He eventually commits suicide. The nominee is never confirmed because the president dies unexpectedly. I think a world where people with power communicate over wires is a perfect situation for the purveyors of hocus pocus to run amock. I think this problem began with the telegraph around 1840 and maybe even earlier when the post office began handling most peoples communications. Some very important government officials involved with Vietnam have since admitted that the Gulf Of Tonkin incident never occurred. Why did we fight a war for 10 years because of it? In the old days if a cop wanted to tap a phone line they had to sit in an old basement or something after hooking up some wires. Today all they have to do is get the court order and then they can do it from the home office. The hocus pocus people must love this. Several Sept 11 documentaries point to a company named AMDOCS as a problem. AMDOCS keeps a record of every single phone call made in the United States. AMDOCS is owned and is located in Israel. I don't totally understand it.

Thursday Nov 8 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center early. Got back late. For the longest time I have been looking for a copy of a Sept 11 documentary titled “9-11 The B-Thing Gelitin LMCC”. I can't find one but I do have it as the feature video on my youtube channel. If you search youtube for zsezse215 you can find my channel. It's about a group of artists who call themselves Gelitin. They occupied the World Trade Center for months just before the Sept 11 attacks. They produced a book that's available on Amazon. Somewhere in that video they mention a congressional report “The Joint Report On Intelligence Activities Before And After The Sept 11 Attacks”. It can be bought on Amazon. It was published a year before the “9 11 Commission Report”. I think it has evidence to prove the Israeli MOSSAD was responsible for Sept 11. I ordered one just last week along with a couple other items through Amazon. Three of the items were canceled when the package was damaged on route. (this is what they say)

Friday Nov 9 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Re-watched “Anatomy Of A Murder” by Otto Preminger. This was made a couple years before “The Manchurian Candidate”. It's about the murder of someone named Barney Quill. A 'quill' is an old type of writing instrument. So Barney could be a 'dog'. The wife of the person who kills Barney has a dog that will get a small flashlight in it's mouth, turn it on and bring it to someone. I think Preminger is implying the dog is 'shedding light' on the problem so he must be eliminated. The wife is very good looking and likes to flirt. She goes out alone to bars. The husband is a lieutenant is the Army. He doesn't really keep a close eye on her but kills Barney after he rapes her. He claims temporary insanity. He gets a down and out country lawyer and the state sends it's best prosecutors. He gets off, then leaves the wife and the lawyer without paying the bill. The lawyer gets to administer the dead mans estate. Recently watched “The Italian Job” starring Michael Caine. If you don't have certain information this movie won't make sense. In the beginning Caine is being released from prison. Everyone but Caine knows that he will be doing 'the italian job'. Even Bridger who runs the prison. He's an inmate. Caine finds out by watched a film of the last person who tried. He's dead. The film explains what it is and how it's to be done. Caine wants financial support from Bridger who eventually gives it despite the fact he thinks Caine will fail. Most of the ending is a car chase through the streets of some Italian city while a song titled “We Are The Self Preservation Society” plays. It doesn't end the way the beginning said it would. ???

Saturday Nov 10 2018 – ND – Went out early just to get out. Had coffee went to library and store.

Sunday Nov 11 2018 – 7 PM – Went to lunch with Mom at South Shore Plaza. Got back about 1:30.

Monday Nov 12 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Wasn't sure if SSMH worker was going to come by. Didn't. I am reading “CIA + LSD = Wisdoms Maw: The Acid Novel” by Todd Brendan Fahey. I haven't finished it yet. I'm pretty sure it's fiction but it has characters that are real or very close to real. It has Aldous Huxley in bed with the CIA and FBI and hanging around with someone named Captain Hubbard (L Ron Hubbard?) and the Hell's Angels. They're trying to create an “Ubermensch” (superman) writer who will open 'the doors of perception' by giving the person drugs. At the beginning Huxley takes credit for George Orwell as an Ubermensch and laments his early death. Huxley wrote an essay “The Doors Of Perception” in the early 1950's. It's about his experience on mescaline. The expression 'doors of perception' came from a poem by William Blake. It was used by the Rock N Roll band The Doors as the source of their name. I actually think drugs were used to stop the doors from opening. The student rebellion and revolution of the 1960's was stopped when it turned into sex, drugs and Rock N Roll in the 1970's. Eventually it turned into Disco music. (Bill Veeck “Disco Sucks Night” at Chicago White Sox games) An 'Ubermensch' is a concept by Frederich Neitchze. I don't understand it. I think this whole drug chickenshit hero army is the church. Books like this are either a lie or the writer didn't get it. The American Inquisition is the Spanish Inquisition with the rule of law. “God wants you in church often” Serpico Slowly but surely over time they've been forced to hide what they do, but they're still doing it. The Pope is a bloodsucker.

Tuesday Nov 13 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Re-watched “David Copperfield” and “Great Expectations”. I ripped both of these from my own discs a few days ago. I don't remember watching either of them. Funny how some of the little details match some of what has been going through my head now. Well maybe it's not so funny. Hope springs eternal I guess. Or maybe it's crazy. Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. When I was in High School one of my English teachers made me read “Great Expectations” but no one else. Pip. Philip Pirrup. “...maybe we should call you Pip.........” “Things To Come” H G Wells 1936 'Have A Sham Re Lationship' Gladys Knight and The Pips Spent some time on “Wisdoms Maw”. Jumps around all over the place. Tries to cover every major event from 1962 to 1965. Kennedy assassination, Hunter S Thompson and the Hells Angels. Spends about 2 paragraphs on the murder of Mary Pinchot and the involvement of Clare Boothe Luce. Captain Hubbard paid Jack Ruby to kill Oswald. If you understand electronic mind control it all makes sense. ??? Well you could blame it all on that!!

Wednesday Nov 14 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center early. Home Depot, Lowes. Lowes is closing and having a clearance sale. That store opened very recently. ?? Have been working on the alternative PCB manufacturing ideas. (see INVENTIONS page www philipnute wordpress com) I bought an X-Y table on Amazon that bolted to my Dremel stand for about $40. I'm trying to figure out how to get the Dremel perpendicular to the table. Then I will need a couple servos. One with a worm gear and one with a regular gear. I can then move the table under the Dremel with an Arduino. The idea is to cut the connections into the blank PCB board and not use a lot of chemicals.

Thursday Nov 15 2018 – ND – Went to Brockton. Needed to go to store. Got back 3 PM. Watched “Being There” starring Peter Sellers. This was one of his last movies. His character is a older man who lived in the same house his entire life. He never went out. He watched TV and tended a garden. When he loses the house he must leave but he's a complete head case. (sound familiar “Frozen” Ironman) The neighborhood he lives in is a slum. Written in graffiti on a wall is 'AMERICA AIN'T SHIT CAUSE THE WHITE MAN HAS A GOD COMPLEX” He has an accident with a rich person who takes him in to make sure he's alright. He meets the president and appears on TV. People think he's a genius or something. The rich man dies and while the pall bearers are moving the casket they are talking about what to do as if the old rich man was a “Puss N Boots”. He was 'Willed To Power” as Frederich Neitschze put it. They suggest making Sellers the next Puss N Boots. The mausoleum the man is buried in is shaped like a pyramid suggesting the men are Freemasons. (“The Man Who Would Be King”) As the movie ends Sellers is seen walking on water.

Friday Nov 16 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Bad weather outside. Got a digital TV converter so I can pick up broadcast TV. It has an HDMI output so I can hook it up to my computer monitor. It has 2 HDMI inputs. I got nothing to do and all day to do it. Waiting for it to be over.

Saturday Nov 17 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched a couple baseball movies. “Fear Strikes Out” and “Bang The Drum Slowly”. “Fear Strikes Out” is the Jimmy Piersall story. Piersall played for the Red Sox for a couple seasons in the early 1950's. He had mental problems. He had a total breakdown on the field late in his first season. He wound up in the hospital where he grappled with issues he had with his father. He returned to baseball but played only a couple more seasons. “Bang The Drum Slowly” is about the relationship between a rising pitching star and a slow witted catcher. Turns out the catcher was dying of some rare disease. The team pulled together for him when they found out. He died anyway.

Sunday Nov 18 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center to return videos. Ate lunch surfed internet. Went to South Shore Plaza on the way home. Looking for a better TV antenna. I would like to complain about my Tracfone service. My number is 339-208-1990 which I think is outside the correct area code. It's the second number I have had with Tracfone. I lost the first one when I screwed up the Sim card. But that area code was 781. I have a Motorola e4. It is supposed to get all types of service. The data has never worked. I have probably piled up months of data. When you renew the service it works for about 24 hours. They tell you to leave the phone on and they will send the APN settings in a text ?? or something. You can text APN or 611611 (???) and get them re-installed whenever you like but mine never works. The fact you can do this tells me there is a backdoor so anyone can access the APN settings. And they do. My phone is encrypted. I am not the one who did that. I don't have any password if there is one. So I can't set a password to stop someone from changing the settings. I am paying real money for this. I know I know take a number.

Monday Nov 19 2018 – ND – Went to Aqua Dental early but changed my mind about having it done. Too expensive.

Tuesday Nov 20 2018 – ND – Went to store in pouring rain. Got back about noon.

Wednesday Nov 21 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Got a better antenna for the TV. Longer range with an amplifier.

Thursday Nov 22 2018 – ND – Went to Lombardos for Thanksgiving. Free ticket provided by SSMH. Was really really cold all day. So cold in the house I slept on couch downstairs. Didn't eat very much. Was very hungry when I woke up the next day. New TV antenna working OK but nothing on worth watching. Watched some of the football game today.

Friday Nov 23 2018 – 9 PM – Went out very early. Had no food in house. Walked down Oak St distributing literature. Got bus at end of Oak toward South Shore Plaza. Got off at Luke's Convenience. Walked to South Braintree Square distributing literature. Got to Pearl St Plaza to do Christmas shopping. Went across st then to Braintree T. Took train to Quincy Center. Bought food at Stop N Shop and came back to Randolph Shaws. Then home. Just flew in from LA and boy are my arms tired. ???? Still can't fall asleep. Room stinks of something. I think it's the cheap printer ink I have been buying on ebay. I have to clean everything. It's part of the reason I can't sleep. My La-Z-Boy makes me feel really crazy. I have these large pieces of plastic I put over it. When they get dirty I wash them in the shower. I also have a couple shower curtains I use for the same purpose. The floor burns my feet. It got all over everything. Started the cleaning when I got home. Just had to. The first thing I did was disconnect the printer and clean it thoroughly with moistened towlets made for electronics. Before I put it back on the floor I put it in a very large heavy duty trash bag. I made a hole in the back to string the wires through. I then bound the hole and the wires with some velcro wire wraps. I folded the top of the bag over the printer. The smell stopped. I still think someone enters my room when I'm not there. They leave little chemical calling cards. They always do the pillow. “...I never give you my pillow,.....I only give you my invitations.................and in the middle of the celebration I break down.................boy you're gonna carry that weight,,...............carry that weight a long time.............” Carry That Weight The Beatles 1969 Ya know 2 albums that really get down and dirty are “Abbey Road” The Beatles and “Whats The Story Morning Glory” Oasis. From beginning to end they say a lot. Not exactly Rock Operas like “Tommy” or “Dark Side Of The Moon” but it's easy to understand if you have certain information. On my main blog I propose a High Wattage Pulse Generator to disconnect people under mind control. If it works I think it could be used as a defense against people who enter someones property illegally. Who cares if it blows up their cell phone too. They weren't suppose to be there. You could market it through security companies. Capitalism, see a need fill it. Going to spend all day tomorrow cleaning.

Saturday Nov 24 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Re-watched “The Money Masters” with Bill Still. Until I watched it this time I have not understood how the Federal Reserve could shrink the money supply. At about the 2 hour mark it gets explained. The Fed sells the bonds it bought from the government, with money it made out of thin air, to the general public. It can then sit on the cash, like hoarding gold. This is 'real' cash, not just numbers added to a ledger. It comes from the people at the bottom. Since there are 2 types of banks, reserve and commercial, it doesn't pay interest like the commercial banks. It is removing money from circulation. It is not like a deposit in a commercial bank. I am beginning to understand how interest creates inflation and why the income tax was necessary when the Federal Reserve was created.

Sunday Nov 25 2018 – 8 PM - Stayed home all day. Cleaned fooled around with the computer. I have been watching some TV. I haven't had a TV for quite some time. There really isn't anything on but I have been watching a little PBS. The local PBS has been running a lot of stuff on the Native American Indians. People are quick to point out that the genocide of the Native Americans was one of the largest in history and at the time America was predominately Protestant. I know that artists use the battle between the Indians and the Pilgrims to describe the genocide that is being conducted today. (see the logo for the Massachusetts Turnpike) Some people may be justifying the current genocide because of the past so I would like to point out a few things aside from the fact it's hypocritical to use one genocide to justify another. Montezuma's revenge was not directed at Martin Luther. History books record the beginning of the settlement of the Western Hemisphere as 1492 AD when Columbus discovered it. The Protestant Reformation began around 1516 when Luther nailed his thesis to the door of his church. Plymouth Mass was not not founded until 1620 AD. Portugal and Spain never had a significant Protestant population and until 1620 they had an exclusive to the New World so everything that occurred up to that point was Catholic. Everything south of the Rio Grande was Catholic. For example I think it was Cortez who conquered the Maya. Montezuma was the last king. Because they murdered him. The Inca didn't fair any better. Nor the Aztecs. I don't really want to make excuses for what happened but I'm going to. When cultures collide bad things happen. Just the way it is. A lot of people who came to the New World were fleeing tyranny. Freedom is the absence of tyranny. Cultures like China and India stayed where they were for the most part because the situation wasn't as extreme as it was in Europe for the people at the bottom. Thats the way I feel. If you live in a Romanist society and you're at the bottom and you don't want to get out you're crazy as far as I'm concerned. Coliseums, gladiators, inquisitions, endless war, you get my drift. I am reminded of a scene from a movie version the “Last Of The Mohicans” where the settlers just wanted a piece of land and to live in peace. They all wound up dead when the French and Indian War was fought. Another thing. In the book “The Secret History Of The Jesuits” by Edmond Paris he claims that when Jesuits landed in what is now Paraguay they enslaved the Indians for some kind of plantation. They forced Christianity on them and did whatever they could to erase their natural culture. The Jesuits were forced out for some reason and the Indians went back to the old ways. I think people who can trade in and use slaves have something in common with people who harass people behind their backs from the cradle to the grave. They're both completely and totally morally and ethically bankrupt. I think this a reason the Pope was close to supporting the Confederacy during the American Civil War.

Monday Nov 26 2018 – ND – Went to Crawford Square early. Turner Free Library. Took out some videos. One, “Inside Job”, is a documentary about the 2008 financial collapse. It's by someone named Charles Ferguson. It won numerous awards. It was so scratched I couldn't get past 30 minutes. I sometimes wonder if these things are no accident. The package shows Massachusetts congressman Barney Frank who was also involved in the Franklin Conspiracy which I think involved a bank. I wonder if the two are related somehow. Maybe the whole financial crisis was planned well in advance.

Tuesday Nov 27 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Watched videos. Bio's of George Orwell and Stanley Kubrick. OK.

Wednesday Nov 28 2018 – 9 PM – Went to library and South Shore Plaza. Did Christmas shopping. Got back late.

Thursday Nov 29 2018 – 9 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched a series of mafia bios. “God wants organized crime....” Roger Waters J Edgar didn't know they existed. HA HA HA J Edgar owed his lifestyle to the mob. They were an excuse to build a militarized police force. “You're government is evil. You live in a police state” Sleeper Woody Allen “Sleeper” and “Being There” are about the same thing. So is “Marathon Man” the Austin Powers movies and “Iceman”. I don't know what. But the same thing. “He was turned to steel in the great magnetic field when he traveled time for the future of mankind” Black Sabbath Well I hope you're happy. Cause I'm not.

Friday Nov 30 2018 – 7 PM – Went to lunch with mom. She didn't want to do it on Sunday because we're expecting rain. Watched “Deliver Us From Evil” a movie from 2013. It's about a satanic possession in New York City. OK.

Saturday Dec 1 2018 – 6 PM – Stayed home all day. Slept. Cleaned.

Sunday Dec 2 2018 – 7 PM  - Stayed home all day. Room mate had a girlfriend stay overnight. And most of the day today. Still here while writing this. When I went to the cellar to get something I discovered my stuff had been gone through. When I got back upstairs I suspect my chair has been salted. These things are supposed to get me to go off. So here I go. No American Nazi is good enough to clean the jock strap of the lowliest German Nazi or even carry it around. At least they had the courage of their convictions and put on a uniform so people could identify them. Re-watched “Collapse” with Michael Ruppert. The first part goes into Peak Oil. Then he talks about the banking system. He says you should pay off your credit cards and your mortgage. I think if you know the system is going to collapse you should get as many credit cards as possible and max them out on cash at the ATM and go to a jewelry store and but gold and silver or something else of value. He talks about paper (fiat) money like there is no way to control it. He thinks it has to be backed up by some resource. Money can be whatever the people in power say is money and will enforce as such. You are already using paper. If you go into a store and the owner refuses to accept a paper dollar that you worked for, it should be possible to call the police and force the owner to accept it. Never mind backing it up with a resource. Anything can be used as currency. There are 3 states a currency can exist in. Too much in circulation, too little in circulation and just the right amount. It's the job of the elected to ensure the right amount is circulating. I think it's already too late to use gold and silver. Overpopulation has made it useless as money because there isn't enough to go around. Controlling the banking system gives someone a bottomless bank account to wage economic warfare. There's a million ways to skin a cat. This is the one that has been going through my mind recently. Lets say you wanted to push a lot of people out of a certain area. There were many landlords with apartment buildings. You build too many apartments and drive the price down for rent. Many go out of business except those the banking system likes. You buy up all the property when they leave or go bankrupt. You may wonder why I don't give up. Aside from the fact you can only do so much to someone it's a case of “stick um up. You're money and you're life” “The Fall Of The House Of Usher” The Adams Family (TV show) Somewhere in the documentary “The Money Masters” he quotes a founding father who understood the problem and what was going to happen. Something to the effect “.....you're children will wake up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered...” I got a copy of “Inside Job” that worked. It's mostly about the banking industry. This is what happens when you can make something out of nothing. The human race is like a flock of birds eating at a pile of berries that have fermented. Only the pile never goes down. One drink's too many, a millions not enough.

Monday Dec 3 2018 – 10 PM – Went out early. Dunkin Donuts and the library. Then South Shore Plaza. Got back late.

Tuesday Dec 4 2018 – 9 PM - Stayed home all day. Room mate had someone stay overnight this weekend. This is the second person. The first was an elderly man. He stayed 8 or 9 days. A couple days he spent in the room next to me with my room mate. They remained very very quiet all the time. He hasn't been back in a while. The girl over the weekend stayed in his room. They were very very quiet. Room mate had his car towed on Friday or Saturday and she had no car. They were still here when I left on Monday morning. His car is now back but I never actually saw her leave. ???? Watched a couple Stanley Kubrick movies. “Paths Of Glory” and “Lolita”. “Paths Of Glory” reminded me of the book by Smedley Butler “War Is A Racket”. I have always wanted to know why they called Amy Fisher 'The Long Island Lolita'. I'm not really sure I know any more about Amy. “Lolita” starts out in New Hampshire. At the end it turns out Lolita knew everything right from the beginning. Clare Quilty might have been a trans-sexual. ??? He dies behind a painting sort of like “The Picture Of Dorian Grey”. Someone else painted the picture. ??? Someone talking behind his back making him look bad. ??? Manipulating him. Quilty was manipulating both Lolita and the man. ??? Lolita knew everything. ??? “Shes waiting.......for another love..........” Eric Clapton

Wednesday Dec 5 2018 – ND – Went out just to get out. Was going to stay home and work on electronics but I'm not sleeping (chickenshit) well and having trouble thinking straight. Still have this swollen abdomen. It's been at least a year. (“Matrix” “Leprechaun”) I also have a bad tooth. I have been working on the Arduino Brain Simulator. I think that Phase Locked Loops (PLL) could be useful. PLL's come as a chip like an Op Amp. It consists of 3 parts. A phase comparator, a low pass filter and a voltage controlled oscillator. They are used extensively in cell phones and other wireless devices to capture the desired signal. I want to capture a transient signal from the throat. Electromyography (EMG) is the medical term for sensing muscle EMI. If sub vocal speech comes from a muscle it is probably transient and somewhere in the audio range. I might need a Digital Signal Processor (DSP). I can also use a PLL in the circuit I'm designing to mimic the brain. (I think?) PLL's are used for frequency synthesis. I figure I can use a shot noise generator then filter it for 8 Hz then increase and decrease it with frequency synthesis. (maybe?).

Thursday Dec 6 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics.

Friday Dec 7 2018 – 9 PM – Went out early. Wanted to go to Weymouth to the old stomping grounds. Just to be an asshole. Wanted to but more printer paper at the Wal-Mart even though I didn't need any. I get the impression people want me to shut up so I am sending a message to go fuck yourself. I think I've got enough paper for a while. A few days ago I mentioned what I call Ironman Syndrome. Ironman is a Black Sabbath song off the Paranoid album. I have brought this up in the past but I'll do it again for any newbies and it's shock value. If you want to know what I'm talking about get someone who is still suffering and get 30 minutes or so of their inner voice. In my case multiply by 30 years. Mine ended about 2002 and ever since I've been harassed by technology and crazies I never see. “Some might saw they don't believe in heaven.............go tell it to the man who lives in hell.........” “Surrender,........surrender......but don't give your self away.........” “Head like a hole................black as a soul...........I'd rather die......than give you control....” WARNING: USE OF THIS PRODUCT INCREASES YOUR RISK OF CANCER

Saturday Dec 8 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Trying to understand sub vocal speech. Yesterday I downloaded what I could over the internet but it all investigates the larynx and face muscles. If you're not actually speaking why would these be involved? The brain controls most of the muscles in the body. It communicates through the spinal cord. The spinal cord is the information super highway for the signals that leave the brain. What if all you had to do was find the signal sent to the larynx (vocal cords)? Maybe it could be accessed from the back of the neck? I figure there are 2 ways to approach the problem. I could get a horn antenna and aim it at myself and try to sift through all the signals I can extract from my head. Or design some type of antenna that would go around my neck to pick up all the various signals coming from my brain. In the end I would need some type of neck antenna to broadcast any jamming signals I design.  Also re-watched “Reservoir Dogs” by Quentin Tarantino. I have been watching a lot of Stanley Kubrick movies. Supposedly he had a very special relationship with NASA. There are a lot of videos on youtube that say the moon landing were fake and Kubrick filmed them. I watched a 2 ½ hour documentary on Kubricks life recently and it says he got a special camera from NASA ??? (I think) to film “Barry Lyndon”. What are people saying? Did Kubrick actually have synthetic telepathy? Or was he aware of it? Most people aren't.

Sunday Dec 9 2018 – ND – Went out to go to store. Watched some of the Patriots game. During the game my brain was doing the usual wandering. At some point I was thinking about how the Bruins used to lose in the last 2 minutes. It was like it was scripted. It happened all the time. And I was saying to myself  'the Bruins snatched defeat from the jaws of victory'. Like Winston at the end of “1984” the Patriots did the exact same thing. It was like Doug Flutie on Thanksgiving Day 1984. ??? Are all players under mind control? Or just some? Do they 'talk' in the ear of some players during a critical play to break their concentration?

Monday Dec 10 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Watched “The Martian Chronicles” by Ray Bradbury. It starred Rock Hudson among others. The Martians could be people under mind control. They're clairvoyant and can transform themselves into different beings. They do this to try to defend Mars from an Earth invasion. Most movies have it the other way around, Mars invades Earth. In the end Earth destroys itself and the only humans left are the settlers on Mars. Watched “Fiddler On The Roof” on TV. It's set in Russia and is about Jews in the Pale. (I think) A man has 5 daughters that are growing up and about to marry. They abandon the old ways of using a matchmaker and decide to chose for themselves. The Russian government is carrying out pogroms in the area. The heart of the military officer in charge isn't in it. He doesn't care about the Jews but he does it anyway. The only other film I know of that is set in this part of the world is “Yentil” starring Barbara Streisand.

Tuesday Dec 11 2018 – ND – Went out early. Library, Dunkin Donuts, bank, Shaws. Got some more movies. Watched “Young Mr Lincoln” starring Henry Fonda. I have always wondered why Lincoln fought the war since I think he understood the problem of the Jesuits. I wonder if he knew he was being manipulated. I think he was. Before becoming president he defended a Jesuit name Charles Chiniquiy in court. He was a Canadian who eventually left the church. He wrote a book titled “Fifty Years In The Church Of Rome”. He was very critical of the church.

Wednesday Dec 12 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched “Inglourious Basterds” by Quentin Tarantino. It seems like all Tarantino movies end the same way, everybody dies. The Apolcalypse. In this one a theater in France goes up with all the top Nazi's. Hitler, Goring etc. Did you know that Shakespeare's Globe Theater burned down at least once in his lifetime? (All the worlds a stage and we are merely players) Germany between the wars was an economic basket case. Ain't no one gonna burn anything down here if they can't create economic chaos or hardship. I also watched 'Going Clear' a documentary about Scientology. I have come to believe Scientology is a cult of mind controlled people controlled by Catholic Jesuit priests. They either volunteer or are conned into joining or they were forced to when they join the military. They can either read minds (synthetic telepathy) or are directed by people who read minds. They are contacted by advanced wireless communications which are either RFID chips placed under the scalp or implants inserted through the nose. These are the people harassing me and lying about me behind my back. This is all standard operating procedure for the Catholic church going back centuries. My evidence is pretty thin or  even non existent. In 2007 I was still living in Weymouth with both my parents. I had managed to get off my psych meds for the first time in 30 years and I think this is the reason it got out of control. They ramped it up for no other reason than to return me to my meds. This is part of what they do. It's fascism/Romanism. In 2007 we had a man named Rick ???? who was delivering the Boston Globe in the morning. I believe he was the first person to actively harass me with all this technology. After my father had his bypass surgery in Nov 2007 both he and his son kind of gave it away. No one actually said anything, I guessed. I started getting videos in my youtube account regarding being 'Rickrolled”. It had something to do with the song “Never Gonna Give You Up” by Rick Astley. I still don't know what that was about. Soon after the Tom Cruise-Scientology video surfaced. Both Rick and his son did work around the house after my father was gone. He died March 31 2008 after being moved around every nursing home and rehab facility since Nov 2007. I could spend months going over that. If I could remember.

Thursday Dec 13 2018 – 8 PM – Went out early. Had no food. Went to library. Watched “Alice Doesn't Live Here Anymore”. I did not know the sitcom “Alice” was based on this. (todays useless information) The very beginning is obviously supposed to be “The Wizard Of Oz” and Alice is Dorothy. The rest is kinda murky. ???? Or maybe it's me. She wants to go back to where she began but things just don't work right. Alice I mean. ??? I need some sleep. She ends up in a greasy spoon in Tucson slingin hash. The Best Laid Schemes Of Mice And Men Go Often Askew What happened to the guy? Why am I asking you?

Friday Dec 14 2018 – 6 PM – Stayed home all day. Got a really crappy nights sleep. The current chickenshit is extra nasty and making sleep difficult. Reminds me of Ironman Syndrome. I would in fact live my life over again exactly as it was than ever co-operate. Watched “Lawrence Of Arabia” starring Peter O'Toole. Lawrence was a real person. He was a Lt in the British Army who helped unite the Arab tribes on the Arabian peninsula during WWI and defeated the Ottoman Empire. He died in 1935 in a motorcycle accident. The movie reminded me of another movie “The Man Who Would Be King” starring Sean Connery and Michael Caine. They were both sgt's in the British military and Freemasons. The quit the military to go into a remote area and plunder it for treasure. They found a lot of scattered tribes fighting amongst themselves so they promised one leader he would be king if they could take whatever gold they found. They would train his soldiers and lead them into battle. It didn't end well but I think this sort of thing is what Freemasonry does. Will someone to power to take money and rule behind the scenes. It doesn't say if T E Lawrence was a Freemason but it would seem plausible. By the 1950's Saudi Arabia was the largest oil producer in the area. Watched about half of a movie titled “Gardens Of Stone” starring James Caan. Caan is a Sgt assigned to Arlington National Cemetery during the Vietnam War. He has a very low opinion of the war. Someone says something I thought was very interesting. They said the Vietnamese had been fighting something for a thousand years. What? The Hocus Pocus Chickenshit Hero Army? In the form of Buddhism? Paul Mus was a Frenchman born in Indochina. He is in the documentary “In The Year Of The Pig” by Emile de Antonio. He spent the last years of his life teaching Buddhism at either Yale or Cornell. He died in 1969. He was also involved in the discovery of Ankhor Wat. (spelling) Ankhor Wat is a religious city in Cambodia that was the center of an empire that was at it's height around 1000 AD. Along with The Temple Of Karnak it is the one of the largest and best preserved sites in the world. Is this what the Vietnamese are fighting? Is this what is going on now in Myanmar? We have met the enemy, and he is us.

Saturday Dec 15 2018 – ND – Went to Boston to distribute literature. Walked from Alewife on the Red line to the Boston Public Library. Got back late. I recently bought the kids toy Mindflex by Matel on ebay. It came out 8 or 9 years ago. You are supposed to be able to move objects with your mind. It has a small head set that reads the EMI of your brain. If you type Synthetic Telepathy into Wikipedia there is a list of people who market these toys. Another is Emotiv. It was expensive

Sunday Dec 16 2018 – ND – Had lunch with mom. She came here. Went to McDonalds after and then to Shaws.

Monday Dec 17 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Cleaned. Re-watched “The Thin Blue Line” a documentary about the murder of a Dallas TX police officer. I understood it better this time. Randall Dale Adams was just another rolling stone who left home not knowing what he was headed into. He left Ohio bound for California but went through Dallas TX. Not 24 hours after arriving in Dallas he had a good job. Something, he says later, should have made him suspicious. He started associating with a local punk who eventually killed the officer and blamed it on Adams. Adams was convicted and the local got away. He was eventually arrested for another murder then confessed to the Dallas murder but Adams is still in jail. The murder occurred in 1976 and the movie was released in the 1980's. I don't know if he's still alive.

Tuesday Dec 18 2018 – 8 PM - My Mindflex game arrived. I didn't know exactly what I was going to do with this but I've decided to try to reverse engineer it. Almost every product you buy will have any patent numbers listed on the box. It may be the law or some legal mumbo jumbo. The only patent number I found was #7,048,604. All patents will cite prior art. Prior art can be another patent and that patent will list the number. And on and on. You could end up with a long list of patent numbers. The box also says it is powered by NeuroSky technology. NeuroSky markets it's own toy. I went to Quincy Center and got more videos. I watched “Constantine's Sword” by James Carroll. He is an ex-priest turned author. He points out many Catholics think the jews killed Jesus and this is a reason to hate them. Constantine started the Holy War Christians have been fighting for millennia. He saw a cross in the sky just before some battle and told his soldiers to fight in it's name. Constantine later converted to Christianity. Constantine also began the system of feudalism. Christianity has sometimes been credited with the downfall of the Roman Empire. It was a passivist ideology. Passivism in a warrior culture would eventually destroy it. Christianity had to be hijacked or it would have brought down the empire from within. Maybe this is what Constantine and others saw as the need to invent feudalism. They incorporated religion in it just to continue a warrior culture. Maybe the jews really want to kill Christianity not Jesus but you can confuse anything with religion. Why stop doing it when you make money and cling to power. It also like Neo Con ideology as described by Leo Strauss of the University Of Chicago. It provides an identity for the lower classes and binds them together with a common goal. At the same time they 'manufacture' jews (me) for the army to kill and a Utopia as the reward. No War Is Holy History is written by the winners.

Wednesday Dec 19 2018 – 8 PM – Stayed home all day. Slept, watched movies. Watched “Whitey” by Joe Berlinger. It was about the trial of Whitey Bulger after he was captured in 2011. The package says it is part of 'The Lost Paradise Trilogy'. I wonder what the other 2 are. I'm not sure what this was saying. Supposedly the thing Whitey wanted the most was not being a rat. A squeeller. A fink. The FBI file doesn't use his name as the informant. They point out that anyone who informed for the government for 20 years would have a file 50 or 60,000 pages. The file the government used in court was only 700 pages. It had no name and no signatures of the people allowed to read it. The defense insisted it was fake. Some people say the Boston FBI is hopelessly corrupt. If it could be assumed the Oklahoma City Bombing was an Aleister Crowley perpetrated by the FBI why wouldn't some of what happened in Boston?. Bulger was accused of murdering someone named Wheeler in Oklahoma but Bulger never really did any business there. ???? He got away for 16 years before being caught. I don't know. Something else has been bothering me about recent events in Boston. Specifically the Marathon Bombing. Just before that happened I posted something about fighting back with pressure cookers. I referred to the way I try to make people angry as a pressure cooker. A movie came out in the early 1980's titled “Altered States”. In it an MIT security guard gets badly injured. (Sean Collier ???) The movie has someone who experiments with a sensory deprivation chamber that looks like a big pressure cooker. ??? (my isolation) He comes out and escapes as an ape and injures the officer. ??? Life imitating art? Or is someone who can't talk trying to say something? (FBI ??) Doesn't have his own TV station or is hearing voices?? ??? I don't know. Concerned about whats going on or can't stand the voices???

Thursday Dec 20 2018 – ND – Went to Crawford Square. Out of money and food. Went to library. Watched “The China Syndrome” starring Jane Fonda and Jack Lemon. It's about a nuclear accident at a power plant. The title comes from the idea that if a nuclear plant were to melt down it would melt all the way to China if there were no ground water. (or it's artists trying to say something “Chinatown”) It came out around 1977 or so. Before the Three Mile Island accident which was real. People used to protest nuclear power all the time. In New England we had the Clam Shell Alliance who tried to stop Seabrook. ??? People gave up I guess. Like a lot of things. Where is everybody? Where's the outrage? (...”prick your finger it is done..the moon has now eclipsed the sun...” Marilyn Manson)

Friday Dec 21 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Watched “Silkwood” starring Meryll Streep. She works in a nuclear fuel processing facility in Oklahoma. Shes gets elected to the union and starts making trouble for everyone. Someone kills her. Kinda sounds like my situation. Not caring about who I throw under the bus. But she had a life to protect, I'm waiting for some kind soul to finish it off. Also watched “The King And I” starring Yul Brenner and Deborah Kerr. Made in the 1950's it's based on a true story. (Anna And The King Of Siam) An English school teacher goes to Siam (Thailand) in 1862 to teach the kings children. They talk about Abraham Lincoln and slavery. Thailand sits between Burma (Myanmar) and Vietnam. I'm pretty sure it was never successfully conquered by Western powers. I wonder why. Knowledge Is Power

Saturday Dec 22 2018 – ND – Went to Target in Stoughton. Got some crap Frosted Flakes. $5 ! Assholes. When I got back I found something very interesting on TV. WGBH Channel 2. The Sultan And The Saint. It was about the Crusades and St Francis. What was really interesting was they admitted that the pope used brain damage to de-humanize people making them more likely to murder. This tactic was used to kill Jews also. I have also been watching a series on Sparta. It is hosted by Bettany Hughes. Sparta was a Greek city state that had a warrior culture. They did not farm or fish or manufacture anything. They enslaved people to do that. They were only interested in creating soldiers. Four hundred years or so after Sparta was no longer the first Roman emperor went there because Rome had patterned itself after them. Capitalism accomplishes the same. It concentrates the wealth and displaces people with new inventions so many people at the bottom have nothing else to do but join the military. Also watched “Captains Courageous” and “Bad Day At Black Rock” starring Spencer Tracy.

Sunday Dec 23 2018 – 7 PM - Stayed home all day. Got ready for Christmas. Watched football. Played with my Arduino stuff. I am sure someone is accessing my main PC remotely even though it's not on the internet and has no WiFi. I could go over it for the millionth time but I won't. Makes getting anything done next to impossible.

Monday Dec 24 2018 – ND – Stayed home all day. Slept.

Tuesday Dec 25 2018 – 6 PM - Went to mom's in Braintree. Had a really good turkey dinner. Room mate is currently making noises 24 hrs a day like he has Tourettes. I wonder if it's on the list of things 'they' harass you with. I know there's a song by Nirvana titled “Tourettes”. The not so famous 'they', 'them' or folklore and folk song. “Some of them want to use you.............some of them want to be used by you....” “They give you this but you pay for that...........” “You can't always get what you want.................” “When their logic ties me up and rapes me.......” Want to go out tomorrow Watched “Andromeda Strain”. It came out in the 1970's. It's supposed to be about a real story. Project Scoop had something to do with a satellite that crashed in Piedmont New Mexico in 1971 killing everybody. The Andromeda Strain is a virus from outer space that could kill the entire human race if it isn't stopped. It feeds on nuclear radiation so they can't use an A-Bomb. They eventually stop it. The base they operate out of could be Area 51 today. ???? (Another Area 51 movie is “Groom Lake” starring William Shatner. Or “Seven Days In May”) Another virus movie is “Outbreak” starring Dustin Hoffman. I, or someone like me, could represent the virus. If the story gets out the country goes caput. (“Moon Turn The Tide Gently Slowly Slowly” Jimi Hendrix) The military wants to save the virus and use it as a potential weapon while many others want to destroy it. Nobody seems to know exactly whats going on.

Wednesday Dec 26 2018 – ND – Went to Quincy Center early. Had to return videos. Went to Wal-Mart. Then Turner Library in Randolph. Got home late.

Thursday Dec 27 2018 – ND - Stayed home all day. Worked at computer.

Friday Dec 28 2018 – 7 PM – Stayed home all day. Worked on electronics. Want to go out tomorrow.